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I lost my little chihuahua Brandi this past weekend. She had severe seizures which left her blind and brain damaged and I had to let her go. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. SHe was only 4 years old and I had only had her in my life for just over a year as she was a rescue from a back yard breeder. SHe was the love of my life, she was my everything and I was hers. I have another dog, Trixie, but I dont' have the same bond with her as she is way more independant than Brandi was. I just feel so lost and forlorn with out her. My heart is aching to have her back but I know she's not coming back and I'm having a really hard time dealing wiht that. My boyfriend is not being very empathetic and thinks I should "get over it" so its making things even worse for me. I never ever thought I could love any living being as much as I loved, and still do love, my little Brandi. She came to me in a time when I REALLY needed her and we have been best friends ever since. She came everywhere with me. I rreally feel we were soul mates. I can't stop crying on and off and feel like the pain is so great I can't even handle it. I lay in bed at night thinking about her and wishing she was there with me. I know that life has to go on without her but I just feel so depressed and sad knowing that she is gone. Thanks for listening. Jennifer
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I am so sorry that you lost your little Brandi. I have loved chihuahua's for many years and recently lost my shih-tzu CoCo on April 3rd and my chichuahua girl, Taterbug on June 6th. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. One thing I have found is that some people do not think of dogs the way we do. I pity them and the fact that they have not experienced the pure, unadulterated love that these little souls give us
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Jennifer, I am so sorry. I am feeling the same way as you about my cat Cleo who passed away last week.
I think it is going to take a long time to get over the pain, you are greiving the death of someone who was a huge part of your life and you are not going to just "get over it."
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Thank you for your messages. Brandi was my "child" and I don't think I will ever really totally get over this loss. A part of me died when she passed away. I am so sorry for the loss of CoCo, Taterbug and Cleo. I'm so relieved I have found this group. It helps to know that I'm not alone and other people are feeling similar feelings and I'm not going insane for feeling this sad and lost without her.
One day at a time I guess. Jennifer
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I am very sorry for the loss of your precious Brandi. It is the hardest thing ever, you have every right to grief. Some people don't have the capacity that others have to bond with animals,so the "get over it" thing is more common that you'd think. That it comes from your boyfriend hurts a bit more so make sure he knows that even if he doesn't have to feel the same way about this loss as you do.
We all understand what you are going through here so visit us often, talk about Brandi and your feelings. We'll always be here for you. This is the most understanding place you could find and I'm glad you did.
be safe. *
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Jennifer , I am so sorry to hear about Brandi, such a terrible loss and at such a young age, although i dont think its ever long enough. I lost my soul mate March 23 2010 241 days now, i understand the intense sudden ache and emptyness that seems to be over powering. I also had (have still ) 2 other dogs whom i love dearly but dont have that one of akind bond with.. I wish i had a great cure for you but i dont, everyone greives different the great thing that we all understand so your not alone, and that has helped me so much. I guess one thing i cling to is that i know we will be reunited with our soul mates our best friends our children again. that keeps me going as every day is yet one closer to him. xoxo hugs from Ohio Katie Lennys mom
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Jennifer, I am so sorry that you are going through this horrible pain losing your precious Brandi. I lost my 11 year old chihuahua soulmate June 16. I do know how devastating this loss is for you. It is a shame that some people just don't understand the bond we have with them. They just do not get it! You can't be expected to "get over" losing your soulmate.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. Post a pic of Brandi and tell us more about her when you feel up to it. Come here as often as you need to. We all understand what you are going through and are here for you. These people helped me so much when I lost my Chico and I got so much support I couldn't find anywhere else. Hugs, Berta
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Losing a beloved pet is one of the most painful times in your life. I am very sorry your sweet Brandi has passed on. Your boyfriend needs to understand that Brandi is a very important member of your family and her loss has hit you very hard. There is no easy and fast way to recover from losing a pet that means the world to you. Your petloss family understands how you're feeling and we are here for you.
Mare precious Christoph ~ 2 years now ~
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I know exactly how you feel, the emptiness and heart wrenching pain is unbearable sometimes. Having to put a pet down is the hardest thing to do, but you did right by Brandi. I went through it 7 weeks ago and I still cry. I have a hard time getting by the loneliness. You have to give yourself time to mourn and grieve...it will get easier as time goes on. I am going through all the 1st's without my girl and it's just unbearable sometimes. All your feelings are natural and real. I am sorry that your boyfriend isn't supporting you. Keep posting to this site because everyone here supports each other. Any help you need they will see that you get it. Many nights and to this day, I still sleep with Buffy's blanket. I go to bed at night praying that I see her in my dreams. I still have the nose marks on my windows. So it's ok, your feelings are real. Post some pictures of Brandi, we would all love to see them. Take care and post whenever you need to express yourself. Lois
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I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved Brandi. Even though she was in your life for so short of a time, she was your baby. We never get over it. We learn how to live without them and to celebrate the very special bond that we had with them. You were blessed with her presence in her life as she was with your presence. The pain of loss is unbearable at times but it does get better. I'm so sorry your boyfriend is not supportive. He doesn't understand. And it is his loss to not know the love and joy of a precious fur kid. She was one lucky girl to have you. Seizures are so difficult on them. My Kona had a seizure disorder that we lived with for the last five or six years. He had a seizure the night before he died. It took too much out of him and he crossed over the next morning. I think people who take care of special needs pets are God's angels right here on earth. Bless you, fellow angel. Beth