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cosesmom

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My Sweet, Sweet Termy,
Today as 8:20 am I had to let you go 18 months ago. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I didn't want you to go but I couldn't let you suffer anymore. I released you from an old and tired body to go and get your angle wings. You gave me 16 years 4 months and 4 days of pure love and blessed joy. Everyday that has passed since September 18th, 2017 has been long and empty. I miss you. I miss your huffs, I miss your screechy little bark, I miss YOU.
I tried so hard the last 6  months that you were with me to make you better but you knew in your huge heart that time was running out for us. I would have cooked you anything, bought you anything to get you to eat and gain your strength so we could spend a few more days, months and maybe years together. But God and the spirits knew better than I, it wasn't for me to make you stay. You were being called home and I was to stay and mourn the emptiness your passing left in my heart. I tried, I really tried. I wish we could have crossed together. Wait for me, my sweet sweet Termy.
I remember you riding in the side car on the motor cycle, I remember you chasing the chippies in the yard, I remember you sleeping next to me, I remember you playing with your slipper (same one for 16 years) I remember the long peaceful walks in the neighborhood with you at my side, I remember you following me lap for lap in the yard as I mowed, I remember you laying in the shade as worked in the flower beds, I remember you l basking in the sunshine, I remember the way you would sit in my arms as we drove around. Termy, I remember YOU! all of you.

I will forever love you with all my heart and forever miss you.



[termy2033]
cosesmom

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My dear sweet Boo Boo,
Mommy misses you everyday with all her heart. I so want to immortalize you. You were such a wonderful fur child. You were always here for me, when I was up and most importantly when I was at my lowest. I lost my joy  and zest for life. Today and everyday since you left, I just go through the motions of life. I never thought being alone would be so hard. I can still see you waiting for me at the door when I came home from work. You were so over joyed and you always made me smile. You were my reason for living this day and the next. I don't know how I am going to finish my life here on Earth without you at my side. I know you are always near me in spirit and you still are taking care of me. I hope you hear me when I come out side every night to talk to you at 8:30. Since you left I haven't missed a single day of telling you to have a good night and have a great day to marrow and mommy will see you to marrow and blow you a kiss and tell you I love you and miss you. You've been at the Bridge 18 months and 2 days and I make the trip to the back yard to see your star. I miss all of you everyday. Everyday that passes is one day closer to being with you again.
I love you with all my heart and miss you with every part of my soul.
Love you always
Mommy
Scott615

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I’m sorry for your loss. I wish I could ease your pain. We lost our Buck yeaterday and I’m so sad, I feel like I can’t live without him. I feel like don’t want to live without him. Please pray for us.
cosesmom

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Termy my love. My sweet sweet Boo Boo
I think about you each and everyday and miss you so very much. You've been on my mind so much. Yesterday I was sitting outside watching the clouds float by and when I looked down, there by my hand was a feather. I know you sent it to me as a sign that you are thinking of me too. Then today I was walking your sister in the park and she stopped to smell something and I looked down to see what she was sniffing at was another feather. From you, I know. You always took care of me when you were here and you still are taking care of me from beyond. I want you to rest to and enjoy life at the Bridge for one day I will be there. You were my brave and wonderful old man.
love you like no tomarrow
Mommy
cosesmom

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My Sweet Termy,
Today was a was a bit tough. I've been thinking of you all day and missing you so very much. I stared at the yard wanting so much to see you walking there, again. But I could only see you in my memories. I haven't put your dishes away or your harness, it still hangs where it always has as if one day you will wear it again and we can walk together and enjoy the days as we once did. I know that this is just my wishful thinking for you have your Angel wings now and have no need for earthly things. It comforts me to leave your things where they always were. I can feel that you are close and that you have never really left me. You may not posses an earthly body but your spirit remains. You know they say that all of you that pass wait at the Bridge to one day cross over with us but I know you are here, still and you and I will take that walk together to the Bridge and cross as one. You were my heart, my soul and my life. I remember, for you will never fade from my memories because love never dies ad you are loved to the bottom of my heart and always will be my hero for you saved me. You loved me as no other in my life and I miss that but I know you love me still. We are connected in heart and soul, we are one.
Love you my little man
Mommy
cosesmom

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Hi my love,
I've been thinking about you a lot lately. More so than usual, I guess. I wonder how our life together could have passed so quickly. We lived everyday with really no of thought of to marrow and that some day there would be no WE. Days passed and then years. I look back now and see how slowly father time took one day and then another until I looked and your muzzle was gray and there was a silver lining along your ears. I wonder when that happened. Your once sharp bark turned into a little screech. (it was so special) You could no longer jump into our chair or jump onto the bed to snuggle with me. I helped you down the stairs to the yard where you would wonder and smell all those beautiful smells that mother nature left just for you. Where did the time go, I wonder. I look back over the 16 * years and I see the wonderful journey we shared together. As I look back at our life together I can see that we did live life as we were meant to, cherished with each walk, endeared ourselves with car rides, sitting quietly on the deck together, playing with all you favorite toys that you knew by name, Me watching you sleep as you ran after something in a dream, You wanting to be with me or just wanting to know where I was. All these things made our life, our life together. In those later years, the stairs were not your friend so you would wait at the top watching for me to come up from the basement. We had a special life, you loving me and I loving you. Who thought that one day I wouldn't be able to watch you sleep, hear you screech, help you with the stairs and just hold you in my arms and smell you, feel your heart beat and rub your ears like you loved me to. Who knew, God did  but I wasn't ready to let you go and walk through life with out you at my side. I didn't think that day would come 18 months ago. My sweet old man, mommy loves you and misses you deeply. I hope you hear me at night, when I say "I love you Boo Boo"
cosesmom

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Termy,
Mommy just wants to thank you for giving me the guidance to write the words to those that have suffered a deep and painful loss. I know I couldn't write those words. You are such a special little man. Everyday you send me signs to help me heal. It's not the same as having you here at my side. I miss you, all of you. I go out side and sit and just listen to nature. I feel closer to you when I hear the birds singing, the wind lightly blowing my hair, when the leaves tumble through the yard, the first flowers to bloom in the spring and the first snow fall. I think you have made me aware of the special things in life and to appreciate the small things. Like you I am living in the moment and enjoying those moments as you taught me.
I love you, my little man
mommy
cosesmom

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My sweet Termy,
I miss you so very much. People don't understand that I needed to do what made me feel better. Like releasing a balloon on your one year mark. They made it seem as if I was doing the environment harm just trying to honor you and make me feel better and it hurts. None of us are perfect but loving you made my life perfect. I know that others are grieving too but making bad remarks about what I did is very selfish. You are my life and always will be. Wait for me my love.
Love mommy
cosesmom

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My Termy, my love,
Boo Boo I am thinking of you today as I do everyday and missing you so very much. I remembered one funny thing the other day about you. We were on the motorcycle and you and I were in the sidecar. We stopped to get ice cream. I got you your own doggie dish with a dog biscuit on top. You were about half way through eating it and you started to shiver. It was about 85 degrees out but you were shivering. You didn't stop licking your dish of ice cream though. I remembered how much you enjoyed it. You never stopped in your entire life giving me the fondness of memories to hold onto.
Just today I remembered something else you did that made another great memory. Your sister Darla was following me in the yard as I mowed the grass and she did the same thing you always did. She was walking with me, lap for lap. You always followed me every time I mowed. I know it's been 19 months since you went the Bridge but I still miss you so very much.
You were my Hero all wrapped in fur. When Dakota passed I thought I would never again get another because I didn't want the pain of letting go. MY life was so empty with out a dog to come home to and to snuggle with. Walking alone had no joy and I was missing someone to love. Then you came into my life and all those worries about the pain of letting go vanished. We walked through life together for over 16 years. We made a journey together that was above all that I ever expected. You shared your heart with me and loved me for who I was. You never expected anything in return except maybe an ear rub here and there and a place to cuddle. You were so good at bringing joy to my life. If there were ever dog that earned Angle wings, it was you. You were perfect in every way. My Heart and soul I gave you and my heart you took with you. I love you Termy, and everything about you.
You made me a better person because you loved me. Thank you.
love you lots
Mom
JackieTeller

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Bonnie, 

Your words brought tears to my eyes.  Termy indeed was a special little man as Rosie was a very special little lady.  Proud and full of dignity, there was never a squirrel she wouldn't chase, a soccer ball she wouldn't play with, or my lap that she never hesitated to sit in as we drove in the car.  It is indeed interesting to note that in our little group, all of our furbabies passed within a week of each other.  Termy and Rosie on the 18th, Miss B. on the 17th and Brandy on the 23rd.  It would be interesting to see when KarmaCat passed.  I think all of our children brought us together for a reason and you will be my friend forever.  

I am strangely calm about starting my job tomorrow.  I feel Rosie is giving me strength to not "freak out".  

Your friend, Jackie 
JackieTeller

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As for those folks who gave you grief over releasing a balloon in Termy's memory I have two words, but they're not printable here!

Jackie

cosesmom

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My sweet Termy,
I've been a bit low the last couple of days, thinking of you and crying a lot. I come out every night and pour my heart out to you. I know you understand my sadness. I know you are always near by and watching over me but there are times I feel it's not enough. I want more but deep down I know it's all I have, now. I miss you so very much and for everyday that passes brings me one day closer to you where we will be together once again, never to be a part.
Last night I was sitting in the bedroom with your daddy and he heard something fall in the living room, so I got up to investigate. Know what I found, of course you do. Your paw print picture, your photo and your Chihuahua dog was on the floor. I wondered how it got from the third shelf and then I knew you were sending me a message. You were telling me that I am not alone for you never really left me.
My sweet Termy you are a very wonderful little guy. Always taking care of mom. I wish I could repay the favor but for now I will let the Angels hold you and take care of, for now my dear sweet Boo Boo.
We are connected souls.
Be the good boy I know you are and enjoy all that you earned. You were perfect in every way.
Love you always
mom
cosesmom

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Termy,
Today is your Birthday. I bought our favorite cupcakes and I saluted you and ate our cupcakes. I wish you were here to enjoy your share but I know that where you are there are plenty of cupcakes for you to eat. Have a cupcake today and remember all the times we shared on your special day. I miss you and the times we shared. I know that you are happy and enjoying your play time. You are whole and healthy.All our life I only wanted the best for you and I hope that I lived up to your expectations and gave you the best life any dog could could ever have wished for. You saved me when Dakota left for the Bridge and I didn't want to ever live with out him then the magical day came and you walked into my life. For 16 long and wonderful years we walked a path that only you and I could share. You were my main man, always there for me. You never complained when you had to go into your crate every night because you knew that I did it for your own safety. How I wish you never had seizures and you could have slept with me every night. You were never far away. As I lay in bed at night I could listen to you sleeping and found comfort knowing you were there. I remember how you always had to get next to me in the recliner and you needed to snuggle next to the arm of the chair and my leg. Sometimes you would play the dead cock roach (lay upside down) when you slept. I loved when we went for car rides and you sat on my lap and leaned into me. You were my co-pilot. Oh, the adventures we shared. You were such a good little guy. At the vets you were always so brave and never yelped when you got your shots. I think you trusted me and knew I would never let any thing really happen to you. All the memories we made will stay with me until we meet again. I hope you hear me at night when I come out to see your star and talk to you and tell you how much I love you and that I miss you with every fiber of my being. 
May the Angles protect you and give you all the love you deserve. Remember I miss you and cherish you for ever.
You are my heart dog, my love, my life.
Happy Birthday (sweet 18)
Mom
Scott615

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Such a nice post, I wish you all the best.
KatKat

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Happy birthday dear Termy.  Dear Termy's mom, how much love you gave and received is evident by your post.  What a lovely post that speaks truly from the heart.  I wish you comfort in knowing how much Termy loved you and that you gave just as much back during his time on earth.  Thank you for your beautiful post. 
cosesmom

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My Sweet Sweet Termy,
This morning as I sat on our favorite bench and sipped my coffee, my thoughts turned to you yet again. I watched as the sun made a drop of dew sparkle like a diamond and I knew this was part of what you taught me. Stop and enjoy the moment. I miss you every single day and sometimes a tear may fall. This only proves to me that my love for you is so deep that the pain of letting you go still hurts. I saw a Cardinal this morning and smiled. They say when you see a Cardinal it means that an Angle is near. That Angle was you. When I think of how much I miss you and that life is really just living day by day waiting to join you, you send me a message to let me know that you are here with me and that you really never left. I looked at your lovely rosebush today and it's not far from blooming. Yellow, like the sunshine you were. I miss you, my little man.
Love you to the end of time
Mom
cosesmom

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My sweet sweet Termy,
Even though I haven't written to you in a few months, I want you to know that I think of you every single day. I miss you as much today as I did 21 months ago. Everyday that passes brings us one day closer to that wonderful day when I will hold you in my arms again and kiss you little nose and rub those velvety ears like you loved so much. When I look into your chocolate brown eyes on that day we will forever be untied in heaven as we were here on earth. I haven't healed, my heart is still broken. I look for you, still. I know that I will never see you walk through the yard, greet me at the door, lay with me in the chair, take a car ride with me or snuggle with me at night. I am told that Rainbow Bridge is a wonderful and magical place and once I come to be with you all will be right in the world again.
Today as I walked in the park with you sister I saw a Cardinal and they say when you see one it means an Angle is near. I know it was you. Thank you. I also found all the feathers you left for me to find, I thank you for those.
Mommy loves you, my little man
cosesmom

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My sweet boy Termy,
I can't believe that I've neglected writing about you in over twenty one days. Even though I haven't written about you I still think of you every single day. Today is hard for me, I thought of you and the tears fell. I miss you so very much and those who are near to me think that I should be over the loss of letting you go. I know deep in my heart I will never be over you. I want you back, I want to hold you and I want our life back when you were walking at my side. I know that I can never have you back but it doesn't stop me from wanting you. I look around and think it's been 22 months and I still haven't put away your dishes and your leash still hangs by the door. I sometimes think that if I did that maybe it would be easier emotionally but then I think that as long as those reminders stay where they are that I will always know that we did share a life and it was real. Some people tell me I need to let you go and move on but I did let you go, I just can't close my heart to you and all that we shared. You made my life complete and now there is an emptiness in my life. Every night when I come outside to gaze at the stars and know that you are the one that twinkles so brightly in the sky I feel that you are still near me and when you send me signs that we are still connected I can sometimes smile and think of you without tears but other nights I cry with emptiness as you where my joy, my sunshine and my reason for living. I miss you more than anything in the entire world and wish for the day that we will be together again. Everyday that passes brings me on day closer to seeing you again. Losing you was the hardest thing I've ever gone through and I hurt so deeply that there are days that I wish I could have left with you on September 18, 2017. You touched my heart in a way that only you could have. I miss you so very much.
Love your heart broken mom
cosesmom

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My sweet Boo Boo,
I asked a friend that writes the most beautiful poems to write one for me and she did.
Here is her poem, written in our love for each other.

My Little Boo Boo

Oh my sweet Boo Boo,

It’s been almost two years since you went away,

I still think about you every day,

It broke my heart to let you go,

But I did the right thing, you know,

We had a grand and glorious life,

So many happy memories, so much love,

I know you look down on me from Heaven above,

A little man with such a big heart,

You were my Terminator from the start,

Oh Termy, I love and miss you so, but it was your time, I know.

I cherish all those memories,

The popcorn, kisses and cottage cheese,

Laying with me on the bed,

Your beautiful dark eyes, my little meathead

My heart will jump with joy and glee,

When I see you in heaven, running towards me.

I know you see the dog prints from above,

I send them to you with all my love.

We were quite a pair, oh it is true,

It won’t be long, I’ll be patient, I will see you.

Your Mama Forever

I cried many tears reading this, it's as if I wrote it (if I could have)
Love momma

Thank you Jackie. ( my friend in Seattle)
MossimoLove

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cosesmom, that was beautiful and thank you for sharing. 
my heart and love is with us all during these difficult times.
cosesmom

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My sweet Termy,
Tomorrow at 8:23 it will have been two years since I said goodbye to you on that sad, sad day. I never wanted our time together to ever end but sadly God called you home to his loving arms. There he has the Angels hold you as you watch from above as your momma's tears fall. Two years is a forever sadness that has never left my heart. I miss you just as much today as I did all those months ago. I wanted to do something special in your honor but Thinking of you with love and remembering all those years we spent together and the memories we shared are a very special way of honoring you and the love you gave to me, never wanting anything in return but knowing I would love you with all my heart and you would never want for anything. You are my special little man. There can never be another such as you. Who know that over 16 years ago we would share a once in a life time connection. Soul mates. I miss you, I love you and I always will. Until the day comes when we meet at the Bridge and you look into my eyes and I into yours and we walk across the Bridge and meet in the middle and turn and walk back across together. Together forever never to be apart again.

Mama,

My dear mama, I love the lights,

It shines your love on cold, dark nights,

I know you gave your all for me,

And I cherish all the memories,

I know it was hard for you to let me go,

But it was my time you know,

My little heart….it just gave out,

You tried so hard to extend my earthly life,

But in the end, you did what was right,

Now I can jump and play and be free,

But I have to tell you about this other doggie,

Her name is Rose and we have become friends,

So many things in common her and me,

She has become my family,

Mama, I love you so much, it pains me to see you grieve,

But it shows your love for me,

I am still close, I am quite near,

Just watch for the signs and you can shed some tears,

We’ll be together, time will pass,

I’ll be waiting for you, on Heaven’s green grass.

Your son,

Termy

Love you my little man

Momma

 
LeeLeesMama

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Happy Two Years Precious Little Angel Termy!  

Termy's Mom (Cases Mom)...  

What a beautiful letter from your baby Termy, it brought tears to my eyes... I truly believe he is waiting for you. My heart about stopped when I read about his friend Rose.... My Lee Lee's first little name was Rosie... then Rose... we also called her Rosalee... and Lee Lee.....  I wonder if she is his friend Rose?...  

Either way, I'm sure that she found your sweet boy a very special pretty for his anniversary. She loved to give 'pretties' to everyone she met... 

I know your heart hurts, and I know how much you miss him.... I feel for you... 

Hugs, Melanie
~Lee Lee's Mama~
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