Registered: 1512061800 Posts: 1
I lost my parrotlet, Brisbane – the love of my life and my best friend for eight years – last Wednesday, November 22, the day before Thanksgiving. He had been battling liver disease for three months before finally succumbing. I brought him into the vet for euthanasia and he died in my hands, me telling him how much I loved him as he slipped away. Yesterday marked one week to the day when he passed.
I have no family. I live alone. I built my life around him. I knew this day would come but I didn't think it would be so soon. We went through hurricanes, layoffs, horrible jobs, grad school...No matter how tough the world outside was, when we were together, our world was serene. He was such a happy boy, full of life. And if I'm honest, I wouldn't still be here if it weren't for him. Now my world is turned upside-down. I hate being home. I try to find ways to distract myself and be out, though I am a homebody. I bought a new cage for whoever comes next, and there are some rescue parrotlets whom I will meet at the end of December/beginning of January, because I do want a little birdie to love again...But I know there will always be this hole. I hope I'm ready to bring a new bird into my life soon. But until then, life is a struggle. And it's the holidays. Which I came to love when Brisbane came into my life, as I found them to be a celebration of this family I made for myself when before I had none. I find myself now alone and lonely despite friends coming out of the woodwork to support me. But I know they have their own families and need their own space and time, too. How do you all get through these dark times? And at this time of year?
Registered: 1512444830 Posts: 5
It's very difficult isn't it? It's the worst pain I've ever felt. I lost my little 3 lb dog 2 months ago and still have outbursts of crying. Whenever I feel sad and miss him I try to think of how happy he is now, surrounded by his animal friends in heaven. They can run and fly freely and play! Brisbane and Lucky
are probably friends there :) :) When my dog Buddy died 5 yrs ago I was so sad I couldn't even eat for days. He appeared to me in my dream and told me not to be sad. He said he was happy where he was, that there was no pain or sadness there, no feelings of missing his life on Earth. Life on Earth was a distant memory and my Grandparents were now looking after him. I will pray that the pain goes away and that the void in your life will be filled with comfort and joy again very soon. Another little birdie is waiting to be loved...