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Friday past I had to make the most difficult decision of my life. My loyal companion and best friend Arca, the dog was slowly going downhill with a prostrate tumour. He wasn't in any pain but was exhausted with the constant thought of thinking he needed to go pee.
I'm trying to come to terms with my actions in contacting the vet and having the dreaded house call that no one really wants but in my heart I know it was the right thing to do but it doesn't make it any easier dealing with the grief and heavy heart.
I'm sure, in time I'll convince myself it was the right decision but for just now I'm a broken man who is struggling with the reality that I made that call.
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Richard, I'm so sorry for your loss. You did the hardest thing any pet owner has to do. Your friend (family member) Arca is now at peace, playing with all our little ones at the bridge, waiting on your arrival some day. I found giving my April her release from pain the most difficult, painful and life crushing thing I've ever done - bar none. If I could have switched places with her.... You have all our prayers and understanding here. This place saved me from going crazy with guilt and remorse. I hope you can make it Monday night, it will bring some comfort to you and yours. Again, I'm so sorry Richard. Bob
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I know exactly how you feel.......I had to make that call two times in three weeks this summer. My Luke and Lil, who were with me for 13 and 12 years were so ill. When we learned that little Lil had cancer, my Luke stopped eating and starved himself over the next week and a half. He was in too much pain when I finally made the call. Three weeks to the day afterward, I drove my little Lil to the vet and he released her of her pain. I try to see her running towards her best buddy at the Bridge....the smile back on her face and her eyes happy again, instead of that poor sick little girl who tried so hard to stay around for me!
When I lost these dogs, I thought my life was over. I swore I would never again feel joy, as the biggest part of my heart had been torn from me. I couldn't even consider getting more dogs. But, as I found this wonderful site with these caring people, my heart began to heal. At the end of September, I believe my Luke and Lil lead me to find two shelter dogs that needed a home and someone to love them. I brought my SilverCloud and Rowdy home on 10/01/10, and I feel that I have a life again and joy!! They will never replace my pups, but I sure do love them! We men have a tough enough time with our emotions to have to live through something like this. Reaching out was the best thing I could do! Thank God for the PetLoss family!! I sure hope you will come back and let these wonderful people help you to heal, too! God Bless! Rick
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yes you did make that call... but that was a good choice you made for arca... he is no longer in pain. he knows how much you loved him and that you couldnt watch him suffer.
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Sorry for your loss.....
The Last Battle If it should be that I grow frail and weak, And pain should keep me from my sleep, then you must do what must be done For this, the last battle, can't be won. You will be sad, I understand, Don't let the grief then stay your hand, For this day more than all the rest Your love and friendship stand the test. We've had so many happy years, What is to come can hold no fears. You'd not want me to suffer so; When the time comes, please let me go. Take me where my needs they'll tend And stay with me, if you can, to the end. Hold me firm and speak to me Until my eyes no longer see. I know in time, you will see, It is a kindness you do for me. Although my tail its last was waved, From pain and suffering I've been saved. Don't grieve that it should be you, Who must decide this thing to do, We've been so close, we two, these years; Don't let your heart hold any tears. - Author Unknown
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Arca is happy with the decision you made. When our pets are heading towards the Rainbow Bridge, it is our duty to make that move as peaceful as possible. I know it is hard to think that sending Arca to his new home was the best idea at this time, but as you move along in your grieving, you will come to accept your decision. We all want more time with our pets and are so sad that their earthly stay is ending. Our pets are true blessings in our lives and we will see them again for all of eternity. It doesn't get much better than that.
Mare precious Christoph ~ two years at the bridge ~ sweetest bunny ever
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I am so truly sorry for your loss of Arca, Richard. I can understand how you feel as today it is exactly 31 weeks since I had to make that dreaded call as well. In time you will learn more and more that you have made the right decision and prevented your boy from pain and suffering, but now just let your grief out and don't hold anything back. Come here often and share your Arca's stories and pictures. It will help you heal and remember the good times together.
My thoughts are with you and Arca.
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Richard, my heart goes out to you in the loss of your precious Arca. I understand that "broken" feeling, you are not alone. I too, had to make that dreaded call for my Australian Shepherd 17 months ago. I'm doing much better know, but those early days and weeks are agony. It's good you've come here to talk about it and share about Arca when you feel up to it. Take care of yourself as you grieve. Hugs of comfort, Lori