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goofygirlinva

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Thomas is an amazing cat. He is at least 22 1/2 years old. I have had the honor of caring for him for about 2 1/2 years after Mary, his human, passed away.

One of the vets on my now deceased kitty Squeeker's cancer care team knew Mary and she reached out to me and a few others after Mary died to see if we would be willing to adopt Thomas. None of Mary's family would or could take him in, and if they could not find somebody to adopt Thomas, he would be PTS. Since Squeeker had recently passed away, I said I would take him. I didn't even think twice about it, I just thought that it was sad and plain wrong that a cat that clearly had a lot of life left in him was going to be PTS just because he was old.

So 2 days after Squeeker passed away, I said yes to adopting Thomas and two days after that, he came home to live with me and my other 3 cats, Red, Rufus and Bud. 

Red and Thomas are close friends - they often snuggle with each other and groom each other. Thomas and Rufus tolerate each other. Thomas and Bud do not like each other and are constantly getting into arguments with each other.

It's been 2 1/2 years since Thomas came to live with us. He is now at least 22 1/2 years old. I've kept in touch with Gail, Mary's sister, the person that facilitated his adoption. She recently came over to visit Thomas. It was hard for her because Thomas was such a large part of Mary's life and seeing Thomas brought back many memories Gail had of her sister. But it was good to finally meet her and Gail took a lot of pictures of Thomas while she was here. She has put all of those pictures on a CD and will be sending it to me later this week.

In the meantime, my feisty, beautiful Thomas is not doing well. He has had difficulty breathing, and we originally thought it was due to fluid in his heart and lungs. So I've been treating that with a drug that is commonly used for these things. Then he developed an abscessed tooth, so we treated that with penicillin. The abscessed tooth seems to no longer be a problem. But his breathing is much more labored than it was even a week ago. We now think there is an issue with his lungs.

I had x-rays of Thomas' lungs taken back in June. They did not show any kind of mass in his lungs, but they did show his heart was slightly enlarged. They also suggested a collapsed right lung, but that was inconclusive. So I am going to have either an ultrasound or x-rays taken of his lung again. I am hoping that he simply has pneumonia and that it isn't something more serious such as a twisted lung or a mass. If it is pneumonia, we can treat it with antibiotics. If it is something else, then I am probably looking at finding a way to give him supportive care with pain meds and probably sub-q fluids.

This is a boy that purrs very easily and loves to eat. He is still purring and he is still eating. But he is restless, and I imagine he is exhausted from how difficult it must be for him to breathe. I can easily hear him both inhale and exhale these days, and I do not know how much sleep he is able to get. 

I've only had Thomas for less than 3 years. I hope I can have him for another 3 years. I know 22 is awfully old for a cat, and he has had an amazing life, definitely cherished by Mary and her family, and certainly by me in the short time he has been part of my life. 

So if you can, please keep my precious Thomas in your thoughts and prayers the next few days and weeks as we try to figure out what is causing Thomas' breathing difficulties and hopefully find a way to restore him to good health.

Thanks,
- Thomas and those that love and cherish him

CarlDD

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I’ll keep my fingers crossed, after reading your post to Squeek, our 18 year old cat, she said she’d purr for Thomas.
Best Regards
Carl
miggymok

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I am so sorry that your Thomas is not feeling well. I am sending good thoughts and prayers in hope for his recovery and many more years with you. Hang in there.
goofygirlinva

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Thanks, Carl and miggymok, for reading and responding to my post. It means a lot that somebody has read about Thomas and is thinking of him...


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Hi Kelly. Although I haven't visited the board much recently I often think of you and your guys. This week is 7 years since Felix went to the bridge and I can't believe how fast time goes by. I know it's been a couple of years but it seems like only a few months ago that Squeeker left you and Thomas came home to you.

I will definitely keep him in my prayers, and you too because you have done an amazing job with him. It takes a special person to bring a 20+ kitty into their home and life. Whatever may come, don't forget you have given him love and a life he wouldn't have otherwise had.

Francis is well even though he's too big but Sebastian is in stage 2 kidney disease. He's stable for now, getting sub-q once a week, Semintra and amlopodine. He hates canned food but is eating the renal diet dry so I hope we can stave this off for a few years. I,m not nearly ready to lose him.

Thomas, I hope there is a treatment for you and you will be feeling better soon. Let us know how things are going.

Sharon
goofygirlinva

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Hi Sharon,

So good to hear from you! I have been thinking of you, and I am sorry to hear about Sebastian and his kidney disease. FWIW, when Blackie had his kidney disease, he did not like the renal canned food, so I ended up giving him a mixture of renal food that comes in a pouch (prescription, of course) and senior Precise canned food. I mixed the two together and he seemed to like that as well. My attitude with kidney disease kitties is to give them whatever food they want because otherwise they seem to gradually waste away before our eyes. Keep them happy, keep them from losing weight, and that often will seem to do the trick to keep them with us a bit longer than they otherwise would be...

So we've had some good news about Thomas! I gave him some Cerenia Monday evening and it seemed to do the trick! When I got home from work & teaching last night (Tuesday), his breathing was noticeably better - no more wheezing after even the slightest exertion, and he was really hungry. I think I managed to get over 200 kcals into him yesterday, which is very good, as we are aiming for 170-180/day. He was purring, his eyes were brighter, he had more energy, and he was doing so much better! I kept him in my bedroom with me last night to see how he was doing, and I did not hear any of the labored breathing that I heard all of last week. He had a vet appointment this morning, and she did not have to tap his lungs because the fluid is basically almost all gone! The x-rays did not reveal anything abnormal about his lungs or chest. He might be in the early stages of some slight heart disease, but overall he is doing so much better! We think the Cerenia did the trick, so i'm going to give him Cerenia in pill form for the next 2 weeks and hopefully that will be the end of his issues. 

This is such a relief - we were kind of thinking about having to make the decision to put Thomas to sleep if we could not figure out what was wrong with him. But now he seems to be on the mend, and that is such wonderful news! So for now I'll give him Cerenia for the next 2 weeks, sub-q fluids if needed, Lasix if he starts coughing or has difficulty breathing, and all the canned food he wants (my other cats get a raw diet, so they are definitely jealous that Thomas gets canned food, LOL).

Thanks again, everybody, for your thoughts and support. Yesterday I was in tears thinking I was going to lose Thomas. Today I have a smile on my face knowing he is on the mend and will be with us for a lot longer!
- Kelly
mom to Wonder Cat Thomas and Angels Blackie & Squeeker



miggymok

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That's wonderful news! I'm very happy for you and Thomas.
goofygirlinva

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Well, Thomas is not doing so well. We have him on heart medication, but the last two days he seems to be getting weaker. He is not eating as much food as he usually does, and this is a cat that absolutely LOVES food. He's also pretty much camped out on his heated pet pad and when he does get up and walk, he is very wobbly on his feet and he usually goes to the kitchen (which is just a few steps away from his pad) or to the room where his litterbox is (which is also just a few steps away from his pad).

Thomas' lack of voracious appetite tells me he is exhausted. He is no longer purring as readily as he usually does. He no longer joins me on the sofa in the living room for some cuddles and together time. I think this wonderful boy is telling me he is exhausted from fighting his heart disease. I think he is telling me he is ready to go. I think he is telling me he has had a long, awesome life but it is time for him to leave and join Mary, his beloved person that knew and cared for him for 20 of his 23 years, up in heaven.

I really hope this is not the case, but when I see Thomas hunched over on his heated pet pad and when I look into his eyes, he no longer has the spark I've known for the past 2 1/2 years. My heart is breaking knowing that our time together is probably coming to a close in the next weeks or so. I think I am going to talk to his vet about this and see what she says. She has known Thomas far longer than I have, as she was Mary's neighbor and she was the one that brought Thomas and I together. She will give me honest advice. She and I both only want what is best for Thomas, and we love him very deeply. If releasing Thomas from his suffering means letting him fly on off to heaven, then that is what I will do, as painful as it will be for me.

For those of you that are reading this, please keep Thomas in your thoughts and prayers. He is a very special boy and it has been an honor and privilege to love and care for him. I really hope and pray he will be with us for a lot longer, but I guess this is one of the prices you pay for caring for a senior cat and letting them into your heart...

- Kelly
Wonder Cat Thomas' mom
Angel Blackie's mom
Angel Squeeker's mom
miggymok

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I'm so sorry to hear Thomas is not doing well. My thoughts are with you both.
goofygirlinva

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Thomas passed away this morning, March 5, 2020. I was home from work because I was not feeling well and was exhausted from a trip Thomas & I took to the emergency vet last night. Thomas was breathing very loudly and he was drooling, so I rushed him to the ER. Thomas had stopped drooling by the time we got there and the x-rays and tests the vet ran did not find anything seriously wrong with him. So we went back home

This morning Thomas and Bud were getting into arguments so I separated them, putting Bud in my bedroom and letting Thomas hang out on his heated pet pad between the two upstairs bedrooms the way he always did. Around 10:30 I heard Bud meow from my bedroom, so I got up and noticed Bud pacing from behind the door- I could see his paws moving as I looked under the door. I did not see Thomas on his heated pet pad, so I looked into the other bedroom where his water bowl and litterbox are. I saw Thomas laying down on the floor. He usually does not do that, so I was worried. And then I took a closer look and saw he was not breathing. I called out to him, touched him to see if he would react, but nothing. My beautiful, beloved boy was gone. Just like that. In an instant. He was fine when I checked on him just a little earlier, and his front paws were damp, which told me he had gotten up to take a drink of water and wash his paws in the water bowl like he always does. And then he must have just not had the energy to go on, so he laid down and went to sleep. Forever.

My heart is broken. This boy was 24 years old. He had a heart murmur but we had done a good job of keeping it under control the last couple of months. He was starting to eat again, and he was happy this morning, coming up to me a few times for attention and pets and he purred for me and ate most of his breakfast. 

And now he is gone.

I let the sister of his person that had loved and cared for him for over 20 years know about Thomas' passing. She and I had kept in touch and she came over to my place during the holidays to visit Thomas. She took many wonderful pictures of Thomas and sent them to me on a CD. I will treasure those pictures forever and have shared them with Thomas' vet who was the person that told me about Thomas in the first place and who has helped provide all of the care Thomas has received these last couple of years. Thomas' vet almost never charged me for Thomas' medical care and I am sure she gave me a few thousand dollars worth of free vet care. I told her about Thomas' passing and she came over and we cried a lot and shared memories.

As you all know, the next few days and weeks and months will be so hard as I try to adjust to not having Thomas in my life anymore. He was such a dear boy and even though we were only in each other's lives for 2 years, 9 months and 6 days, he sure found a way to carve out a big place in my heart. 

Now I am down to 3 cats. I swear I am not going to get another cat and will work on learning to live with the 3 I have. Of course I swore that as well after Squeeker died. But then Mary, Thomas' person died and nobody wanted him. So Jerri reached out to me and some others and of course I immediately said I would take Thomas. And just 3 days after Squeeker died, Thomas came to live with me and my 3 other cats. And even though he and Bud did not get along at all, I was so blessed to have Thomas be part of my life. What an amazing cat he was, living to be at least 24 years old. And then leaving us on his own terms, very peacefully and without pain.

Thomas, you were such a special boy. I am so sorry you left us, but you had an amazing life and I hope you knew I loved and cherished you. I was really looking forward to teaching you how to walk on a leash so we could explore the neighborhood this spring and summer. You had such a strong spirit and I actually had hope that we would be able to make it to your next Gotcha Day anniversary. But it wasn't to be, and now I hope you and Mary have been reunited up in heaven and are together again, the way you should be.

Thomas, I will miss you so much. I will miss giving you your medication, I will miss hanging out with you on the sofa in the evenings and on the weekends. I will miss coming home and seeing you greet me at the top of the stairs. I will miss your loud, obnoxious meow. I will miss caring for you and loving you and trying to be sure you were happy and as healthy as possible. I will miss brushing you. I will miss looking into your beautiful, loving eyes and hearing and feeling your beautiful, strong purr.

Do me a favor, OK? Please come visit me in my dreams so I know you are OK. Please keep visiting me in my dreams and when I pass and go on up to heaven, please come greet me so we can be with each other again. I know I will have to share you with Mary, but that is perfectly fine, and I just want you to know that I will never, ever forget you and I will always love you until the end of time and beyond.

All my love, my precious one. Until we meet again...

- Kelly
Angel Blackie's mom
Angel Squeeker's mom
Angel and Wonder Cat Thomas' mom



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I'm very very sorry to hear of your loss. You can take comfort that he went peacefully and that you loved him so much. My deepest sympathy.

goofygirlinva

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Thank you, miggymok, I do think Thomas went peacefully - and I am thankful he no longer has to struggle with heart congestion or his wheezing or anything like that.

It is just so different in the house today. Thomas had a really loud meow and he seemed to constantly meow, so between that and his heavy breathing, the house is so quiet. It was so sad when I came home last night after teaching. Nobody greeted me at the door. Thomas was always at the top of the stairs to greet me, and the other cats would follow his lead and do the same. But when I came home last night, nobody was there to greet me. The other three were sleeping and were just waking up when I opened my door. Yet another reminder that Thomas is no longer with us.

And when I fed the boys, both yesterday and this morning, I did not have to prepare Thomas' medication for him. I simply fed the boys, they ate their food, and mealtime was over. No hearing Thomas' extremely loud demand for food, no monitoring the boys to ensure they did not eat each other's food. They just simply quietly ate their food and went on their way. And now I only have 3 bowls to clean instead of 4, and I will be using less food each day, so that means it will take longer to use up the food I make for them.

One of the other things about Thomas is that he drank so much water. I have 3 water bowls that I set out and he would go around to each bowl so many times each day and drink so much water that I used to have to refill at least 2 of them every day because he basically emptied the bowls on his own. And that meant that he peed a lot, so I would need to scoop the litterboxes twice a day. Now that he is gone, I'll probably go back down to just 2 water bowls and I won't need to scoop the boxes so frequently.

When I chilled out on the sofa last night, Thomas wasn't there to join me the way he always did. For the first time since before Thomas came to live with us, all 3 of the boys joined me on the sofa last night. That rarely, if ever happened because Bud & Thomas did not get along so they kept their distance. But now Bud, Rufus and Red joined me on the sofa last night. But Thomas was not there. And none of the cats snuggled with me the way they did when Thomas was around. So even though I had 3 cats with me last night, I felt really lonely just because of the absence of one amazing, wonderful, sweet little boy whose heart decided it had enough and it was time to leave this earth and fly on up to heaven and leave behind those of us that loved and cherished him.

Thomas, thank you for your love and the time we shared. It was not nearly enough time together. I will miss you so much, probably more than I thought I would. Know that I will always love you forever and that you will always have a very special place in my heart....

Fly free, sweet one and go find Mary up in heaven. I am sure you two are reunited and it must have been a glorious reunion! I can just imagine her greeting you with the biggest smile on her face and with open arms as you joyfully run to her, never to be separated again...

- Kelly
Angel Blackie's mom
Angel Squeeker's mom
Angel and Wonder cat Thomas' mom



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I know how hard it is. I lost my Mia four months ago and the house is still empty and silent without her. All you can do is hold Thomas in memory and cherish the time you had. I try to do that but I admit it is sometimes not much comfort, since she is not here with me. I wish you healing and peace.
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It has been 3 days since Thomas passed away. The house is so different without him here. It is quieter. It is calmer. It is just so different. I knew I spent so much of my time, energy and resources caring for Thomas while he was here, but I didn't really realize how much until he was gone. It now only takes me about 5 minutes to feed the boys in the morning. I only use 3 cat food bowls now instead of 4. I no longer have to prepare Thomas' medications and give it to him. He drank a LOT of water, sometimes emptying at least one of the 3 water bowls every day. I've only refilled one of the bowls since he passed away. And the litterboxes are not nearly as filled with pee and poop as they used to be, so I am scooping the boxes less frequently, I am using way less litter than I used to and the carpets and floors don't have so much litter tracked on them, so I am vacuuming the carpets way less frequently than when Thomas was around.

The house is also so much quieter. Thomas had the loudest meow and it just filled the house with its sound. It used to annoy me, but oh what I wouldn't give to hear it again. Thomas was also the one to greet me at the top of the stairs when I cam home. He isn't there anymore, and whenever I look to the top of the stairs as I walk into the house, it breaks my heart to know I'll never see him do that again.

I ordered an urn for Thomas' ashes yesterday. I haven't taken him in to be cremated yet, but I will wait to do that once his urn arrives, which should be within the week. I clipped some of his fur and whiskers and have them in a plastic baggie that I will put by his urn once I have him cremated. I also purchased a little cremation necklace to hold some of his ashes by my heart. And I ordered another cremation necklace to give to his person's sister, the one I've kept in touch with over the years after Mary died. Gail tells me one of Mary's sons is going to be in town sometime this summer. They want to take Mary's ashes to be buried with her husband in Red Wing, MN. Gail asked if she could have some of Thomas' ashes to bury alongside Mary. Of course I said yes - what a really lovely and touching thing to do. Thomas and Mary will be together again - they were together in life, I'm sure they are together in heaven and they will be together in death. How beautiful and fitting for two that were so very bonded and loved each other so deeply.

I know I gave Thomas a home in his retirement years. I know sometimes he did things that really annoyed me, and I didn't always give him the attention he deserved and wanted. But I hope he knows that I loved and cherished him so very much. I think it is going to take a long, long time to come to terms with his passing and heal from it. He was so very special and I know I am being selfish, but I really wanted more time with him. I wanted him to last to at least his 3rd Gotcha Day on May 29 so the weather could turn warm enough so I could teach him to walk on a leash and we could explore the neighborhood and nearby hiking trails together. I think he would have loved that. I should have done that with him the previous 2 springs and summers. but I didn't, and now he isn't around anymore and I regret not taking advantage of the many opportunities to do that with him so we could spend more time together...

Thomas, you were such a special boy. So many people loved you and you loved them in return. I will do what I can to keep your memory and spirit alive. And then, even though I know you are reunited with Mary up in heaven, I hope you will greet me at the Bridge when I pass away. I hope you will be willing to split your time between me and Mary and anybody else that is up in heaven with you that you knew and loved throughout your years. You were an incredible boy and it was my honor and privilege to know and love and care for you. I hope you know that. I hope you know how much I love you and how precious and dear you were. 

Until we meet again, know you will always have a very special place in my heart that is reserved just for you...

- Kelly
Angel Blackie's mom
Angel Squeeker's mom
Angel and Wonder Cat Thomas' mom

goofygirlinva

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Hi Thomas,

Just wanted to pop in and say hi to you. I am having a hard time adjusting to my new reality without you in it. It wasn't until you were gone that I realized just how big of a presence you had in my life, in my home, in everything you did. Things are so much quieter without you here. The boys are all calmer, especially Bud. I know the two of you never got along, but I think he misses you in his own way. I am sure Red does - he seems to be a bit clingier than usual, so I know he misses you, his snuggle buddy.

Gail told me that last Tuesday was Mary's birthday. I did not know that, but now it makes sense that you left when you did, one day after her birthday. You probably gave her the very best belated birthday present she every had by flying up to heaven so the two of you could be reunited once again. I am sure it was a glorious sight - I can just imagine you seeing her waiting for you with her arms wide open with you lighting up as you ran across the bridge towards her. You two had such a special bond right up until the very end of her life. And now you are together again, never to be separated. Bless you, Thomas, for your devotion to Mary and also for opening up your heart to loving me, Red, Rufus and Bud after Mary died and you came to live with us. I know I only borrowed you for a short amount of time, but it was a wonderful time and I did all I could to make sure you were loved and well cared for.

Thomas, when it gets warmer here I think I am going to plant a lilac bush in my sunniest garden in your honor. I will plant it in the garden beneath my bedroom window so that when the flowers bloom it will fill the garden and hopefully my bedroom with the sweet aroma that only lilacs have. I am hoping it will bring a smile to my face as I inhale the fragrance and remember some of the wonderful memories I have of you. I am thankful I have some videos and pictures of you, probably more than I ever had of any of my cats that are now deceased. Unfortunately, none of those videos captured your very unique meow, so that is sad. But I do have some where you are looking right at me with those wonderful, loving eyes of yours, and that is what I will remember the most - your eyes, your beautiful eyes and how you always loved to be near people and other animals. Now that you are gone, I certainly miss that. But again, I take some comfort knowing you are up in heaven with Mary. You are healthy and young again. You don't have your heart issues and you can run and play all you want without getting tired or worrying you might get hurt. 

Thank you, once again, Thomas, for coming into my life and allowing me the honor of loving and caring for you. You were a gift from God and I will always treasure our time together.

Until we meet again, all my love to you...


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It was just around this time two weeks ago - 9:50 a.m. - that I last checked on Thomas to see how he was doing. As far as I could tell, he was doing great. He happily greeted me, purred for me a bit, so I thought he was fine. I went into the living room to settle down on my sofa and watch some TV. Little did I know that this was the last time I would see Thomas alive, because about a half hour later, he passed away after getting up to get a drink of water and wash his paws in his water bowl. From what I can gather, he simply decided he was ready to go be reunited with his beloved Mary, so he laid down on the floor and went to sleep forever.

Thomas, so much has happened in those 2 weeks that you left us, with the coronavirus and other things. I have to believe you and Mary are now together again and are so very happy up in heaven. This morning I thought of you as I was getting ready for work. I thought about how you had such a wonderful soul and heart, that you let me love and care for you and you loved me right back, despite the fact that your entire universe had been turned upside down. I thought about how Mary's family loved you and how they did all they could to find a new home for you. I told myself that I am happy you are with Mary once again. I told myself that you were such an amazing cat and it was my honor and privilege to call you my cat for the 2 years, 9 months and 6 days we were together. 

But I always knew that, no matter how much I loved you, you were really always Mary's cat. I guess you were kind of in extended foster care of sorts with me until it was time for you to fly up to heaven. It really hurts that you are gone, and I am trying to convince myself to be happy for you, that your heart disease is gone and you are a healthy and vibrant kitty once again. You can now run freely through the meadows up in heaven and not worry about getting lost or hurt or being separated from those you love that are with you again. I just have to trust that there is enough love in your heart that once I am up in heaven, you will come find me and we too can be reunited once again. 

There are times when I smile when thinking about you. And there are times, such as now, when I am shedding tears because you are gone and I really miss you  I have my favorite picture of you that I printed out that is on my desk here at work. It's a tiny picture, but it is one that I believe I took just a day or two after you came to live with me. You are sitting on my desk with your Thomas name tag that I got for you dangling from your collar. You are just sitting there and looking right at me. I can see the trust and love in your eyes, already there just a couple of days after we first met. What an incredible capacity you had to love and trust those around you. Not all cats are like that, but you definitely had that in you, and in spades...

I guess I will sign off for now. But I just wanted to stop by and let you know I am thinking of you today and that I love you and will always cherish our time together.

Until we meet again, all my love to you...

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Hi Thomas,
Just wanted to stop in and say hi to you and to let you know I am thinking of you and that I miss you. I miss taking care of you. I miss hearing your insistent meow and your demands for food. I miss your head butts, as annoying as they could sometimes be. I miss having you around, and I miss snuggling with you.

Thomas, I got your urn about a week or so ago. You know I have not yet taken you in to be cremated. I am dreading doing that, but I will finally have some down time this coming Sunday, so I will make an appointment to bring you in to be cremated for this Sunday, March 29. The ironic thing about this Sunday is that it will be the 12th anniversary that my beloved Blackie passed away. So I guess March 29 will now be memorable to me for two reasons - Blackie's RB Day anniversary and your cremation day. I don't want to have you cremated, but I need to do it. It will be very difficult for me to hand your body over to a stranger because I won't be able to see or hug you or feel your beautiful fur anymore. Once I hand you over, you will be GONE. I mean, I know you are gone, but this will be so FINAL. And then I'll get your ashes back in about 2-3 hours and all I'll have of you after that will be some pictures and videos of you, memories of the short time we spent together and your ashes. I am so sad that I was never able to capture your meow on video. Your meow was so unique - so loud, so insistent, so demanding. There will never be another meow like it again, and I am sad I never had an opportunity to capture it so I could listen to it again...

Anyhow, I hope you are happy up in heaven. Actually, I am sure you are happy up in heaven. I am sure you are reunited with Mary and all those you've known and loved that passed away before you. You were beloved by so many people, I am sure you are surrounded by loads of people and animals you've known throughout the years. Gail tells me that sometime this summer one of Mary's sons will be in town and that they will then take Mary's ashes to be interred with her husband's body. Gail asked if she could have some of your ashes to be buried with Mary. Of course I said yes - you two were together in life, you are now together in heaven, it is only fitting that you are together in the same burial space. Of course, given all that is going on with the COVID-19 situation, who knows if that will still happen this summer. But when it does, I will gladly share some of your ashes with Gail so you and Mary can be together again...

Take care, Thomas. If you can, please come visit me in my dreams so I can say hi to you, give you kisses and scritches again, and look into your beautiful eyes one more time.

Until we meet again, all my love to you...


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Hi Thomas,
Just wanted to stop in and say hi to you and let you know I miss you and am thinking of you. As you know, I finally took you in to be cremated on Sunday. I had kept you in my garage freezer and when I took you out Saturday so you could thaw out before cremation, I was reminded yet again of how beautiful you were. You had such a pretty orange tabby coat and it was so incredibly soft. I'd forgotten how much I enjoyed petting you and caressing your beautiful, silky coat. Your cremation day is the same day as my beautiful Blackie's RB Day. He too was a senior kitty that I cherished that left this earth way too early. So now whenever I think of March 29, I will think of both you and my precious Blackie. Oh, how I love and miss the both of you...

Thomas, I am so sorry you are gone. I am so sorry you are now simply reduced to a bunch of ashes. You were so lively and vibrant and you had such a huge presence wherever you were. I miss having you in my house, in my life. The house is so much quieter and so much more subdued without you here. I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing. All I know is that the energy is simply different without you here.

Over the weekend I finally bit the bullet and decided to foster Tobie, a 15-year old tuxedo-colored kitty. The people at the shelter that was caring for him told me that his person moved and decided she could no longer care for Tobie or his friend Oreo. I had originally thought it was a situation where their person was older and moved into a senior living situation. But I was told that wasn't the case - apparently she was middle aged and simply decided to not take Tobie and Oreo with her when she moved. So they were - thankfully - brought in to the shelter, and that is where I found Tobie. Tobie is a senior boy. He seems to be in really good health, and like you he likes people. He purrs very easily for me, just like you did. And he is a chow hound, just like you were, LOL. He knows I have other kitties in the house and has seen them, but he is not yet ready to meet them and spend time with them. So I will keep them separated until Tobie is ready to interact with them without any hissing on his end. I hope that Tobie will get along well with Rufus, Red and Bud. I know you and Bud and sometimes you and Rufus did not like each other at all. But I know you loved Red, and I think Red misses you a lot. He is meowing a lot more than he used to and isn't as calm and chill as he normally is. So I think he really misses you and that makes me sad. I try to give him as much attention as I can to help make up for it, but if you could please find a way to come visit Red and help him be at peace, I would really appreciate it...

in the meantime, Thomas, now that I have your ashes I will work on setting up a memorial space for you in my room. I have the food bowl that came with you when you came to live with me, along with your collar and tags, the laser toy you liked to play with every now and then, your beautiful urn, and of course my favorite picture of you that I finally framed the other day. I think I will also get a flameless candle for you that I will put next to your urn that I will turn on when I go to sleep each night, just like the flameless candles I have for Blackie and Squeeker. I also have a really nice card that my friend Linda sent to me after you passed away that I will put next to your urn, picture, food bowl and flameless candle. I'm not quite sure where I will put it, but I would like it to be close to my bed so I can easily see it when I go to sleep at night and when I wake up the next morning...

Anyhow, Thomas, I hope you are happy up in heaven. I do miss you so much, so please find a way to let me know you are nearby and that you will always be with me, OK?

Until we meet again, all my love to you...

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