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I lost my dog three months today--the worst day of my life. I love you baby girl, I miss you, I'm sorry.
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Dear Becky, I remember your story well and read all of your posts about your sweet dog and how you feel responsible for her passing.. that you should have been more aware of the signals of her having side effects to the asprin you were giving her and for not taking her to the Vet right away and asking more questions etc. You kept saying you felt like you were negligent with her and you feel such guilt and shame for that. My friend I said this before and I will say it again I do hope you are able to let all of that go. Your sweet baby knew you loved her, you did so much for her and all you wanted was for her to stay with you and be ok. You are not a Dr so how could you have known what was happening with her and the asprin. Plus it sounds to me like she had other health issues going on so I am sure it was more than just the asprin. We as humans tend to really beat ourselves up after the loss of a loved one. We go back and disect everything and try to think of what we should have done instead and then feel guilty for not doing certain things differently. I know, because I am a prime offender. We put our beagle to sleep a year ago last week and I have beat myself up for the past year thinking we should have given her a little more time. Slowly and I mean very slowly I am beginning to realize that it was probably the right time for her, maybe a day or two wouldn't have hurt but it would have just prolonged the inevitable... she was an old, sick girl who was only holding on for one thing...me. She didn't feel well, that was obvious, she could barely walk, she could barely eat, she was peeing everywhere because she couldn't control it. It would have been selfish of me to keep her in that type of condition for myself. Three months without your sweet girl probably feels like an eternity in some respects and just like yesterdaay as well. I am so sorry for your loss and I do hope you are able to find peace and to let the guilt go. You never would have done anything to hurt your girl, you loved her more than anything. Always remember that and know she will always hold a special place in your heart.
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Becky-- I'm here for you and thinking of you with special prayers. I know how you're feeling, and after 8 months, I still feel the same.
Many hugs to you-- Teddy's Mom
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I know how hard this day is for you. Three months can go by so quickly yet seem like forever. Time is our enemy now and there is nothing that we can do about it. Sometimes I really hate time.... I know how much you love Libbie and how much you miss her in your life. I wish there were sufficient words to help with this loss. Just know that we are all here for you. I think about you often and hope that you are doing well... Helen
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I have read your posts and know what a nightmare your life has been . Three months is such a new loss, but I am sure it feels as if your baby has been gone Forever. I wish there was something I could say to help you through this overwhelming pain, but I have not found anything in the over 15 months I have been looking that helps. Please know that you and your baby are in my Prayers. Big Hugs Georgeann and Christopher Forever
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I'm sending you hugs on this three month anniversary. I know how terribly hard this has been and how much you are hurting. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Kate (Gus' mom)
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You are in my thoughts and prayers on this three month anniversary of Libbie's passing to the Bridge. I know how painful these milestones are, especially when you have lost a baby so young. I lit an internet candle for Lib on this site under AurichWolf's thread. May your grieving heart be comforted. Hugs, Melissa
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I'm thinking of you today, and sending you hugs and understanding. Your sweet baby girl is watching over you, she loves you. Katharine, Grunt's Mom Forever