Registered: 1512692286 Posts: 67
I came home December 6 from the vet's office in a state of shock. Even though she was 15.5 years old, she passed so fast. I remember standing the backyard crying out to her that I would never see her again if I took her to the vet to ease her sickness.
I am still hurting. Still spend time looking at her pictures. I am so grateful that I took a lot of them. Cellphones have made it easy to have pictures and I am grateful that I snapped away through her life. I am planning on making a video from all of the pics. Looking through them reminds me how much time we had together and how old she was. Her last year reminded me of a sweet little old lady. So tender. So vulnerable. The kind that makes you stop and do whatever they need in a grocery store. I miss her. She was 12 when we still were hiking at Yosemite. We had one of her little ole lady strolls three days before she died. I miss taking care of her. I still have kitty but he is 5 and in his prime and has few needs from me. He sits on my lap a lot. I think he understands I am sad, but I am not sure he makes the connection that it is about his dog. He knows his dog is gone, but he would not know where she went. I remember thinking a few years back when I knew how old she was getting, how I was looking forward to no more dog hair in the car, on the carpet or anywhere else. I was envious of people driving by with their clean cars with spotless windows. I have not even bothered to vacuum out the car. I do not want to remove her nose prints from the glass of the rear window of the car. I did vacuum the carpets but that's it. Sigh. Maybe spring will be better. Hugs to all of you.
Registered: 1506600906 Posts: 32
It's a rather late reply but I was just having a scroll through these posts and yours was comforting to read. I can relate to everything you said, sweet old dogs are the best dogs. They really bury themselves deep in your heart in those final years.
I hope you're hurting a little less now. I lost my old mate 4 months ago now but the grief just comes out of nowhere every now and then. That's when I come here and feel a little less alone. So thank you.
Registered: 1508457900 Posts: 4
To Tanker_1 and VT
I too can relate to both your posts. They were beautifully written and just describe so well the special bond that develops with our pets as they grow old. I lost my 14 year old Georgia 14 months ago and it was months before I could do things alone that we used to do together without becoming grief stricken. She brought so much joy to our lives and life just isn't the same without her. I too come to the message board if I'm having a nostalgic day and find comfort. I hope you are finding some comfort as well.