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My baby passed away 1 month ago today. I miss her so much. My heart still aches for her. Life has not been easy without her. I feel very empty inside, she just filled my heart with so much joy and love, which I have never felt from anyone else in my entire life. I talk to her everyday and kiss her urn good morning and good night, and I have next to my bed.. I wish so badly that she was still here with me, but I know she would have been sick and miserable. I have slowly come to terms with a little bit of her illness, but still have feelings of guilt for not seeing her for 3 of the 6 days, when she was sick at the vet. I want to tell the vet's office to NEVER tell anyone that it stresses them out to see their mommy when she was in the hospital. I lost 3 precious days with my baby. I feel she must have been so sad. I am looking forward to the day that we will be together again, I actually can't wait. I just want to be with her. Thank you to everyone who has been there for me, I wouldn't have made it this far without you.
Bella, my love, I love you and miss you so much. Please forgive me for not seeing you, but I thank God everyday that you were able to wait for me to say goodbye. I am grateful to have kissed you and loved you a few hours before you left my side. I'm so sorry I wasn't holding you in my arms when you passed. I hope you are with so many new friends and you have a blankie to sleep under at night and a big warm doggie to cuddle with. You are the best cuddler. I hope Mimi and Papa are taking care of you, and you are being showered with kisses all day long.You love people so much. Please stay by my side everyday. I'm sorry I didn't walk you more. Please forgive me. I love you.
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I'm so very, very sorry for your loss. She's a very beautiful girl. Please try not to worry about her - she is with our babies and she is healthy and very happy. My Kato is a big mush and I'm sure they are cuddling together. Please try not to feel guilty - we do our very, very best and they know that. Hang in there and please know we are here for you and we care very, very much. Huge Hugsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss, KatoWolf
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My condolences for your loss. She forgives you and I know it is so hard now but over time you will be so grateful for those last few hours you and she shared together. She is at the bridge in a new body pain free and watching over you. Bella will be there with you always for when they leave they also leave a piece of themselves in our hearts. I believe over time their presence in our hearts is what helps us heal that broken heart. Their spirit over comes the pain and replenishes it with their unconditional love. We need over time to embrace that love that is still there for that is what they and your Bella want, no sadness, but precious memories of the time we had together. God Bless.-----Jerry in Oklahoma. God's Garden
God looked around His garden
And He found an empty place He then looked down upon the earth And saw your precious face He put His arms around you And lifted you to rest; God' s Garden must be beautiful He always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering He knew you were in pain He knew you' d never ever Get well on earth again. So He closed your weary eyelids And whispered " Peace be thine " Then He took you up to Heaven With Hands so gentle and kind. It broke our hearts to lose you But you did not go alone, For part of us went with you The day God welcomed you home.
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Sharibella--I am sorry about your Bella. She looks so sweet. You sound like such a good mommy.
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Dear Shari-- I remember too well that 1 month Bridge day. That's the day I found the petloss family. I didn't know where else to turn and I was welcomed here by so many wonderful and caring people. The pain is still so new and very difficult to deal with. I know that I cried so much and actually got sick. My immune system was out of whack because I just didn't take care of myself. My grief overcame everything in my life.
Finally, I realized it was not going to bring Teddy back and that I had other responsibilities to my family and my other furchild. This site was my godsend and gave me some sense of hope and knowing that I was not alone on this journey toward healing. I hope that you will forgive yourself for something that was beyond your control. Your love for Bella clearly shows in your words and I'm sure that she knows that. You did everything that you possibly could. DEAREST BELLA- HAPPY 1 MONTH BRIDGE DAY. Please let your Mommy know that you are well and happy. Show her some signs of your special love and devotion that you shared. Shari, I hope that you will find some peace as you continue to heal. All my thoughts and prayers are with you-- Teddy's Mom