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LeeLeesMama

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Hi Sharon,
How are you doing lately?  I know you are missing your babies, but I hope peace is finding your heart from time to time.  I saw your new little guy's photo on Allison's thread - he is a cutie pie - beautiful eyes and so lucky to have you.  And no, I don't believe Felix and Oscar mind at all that you have Sebastian - I think they are glad he brings you smiles.  I took in a lot of dogs while Lee Lee was still here and she always befriended them quickly and made them feel right at home.  

Yes, my little Angel is still sending me signs - the last was Sunday afternoon - I had asked her for a sign - specifically a heart. Later, when I was working on her spot beneath the oak tree I decided to put some river rocks around the edges. As I was digging through my stash of rocks, bless her little soul, I found not one, but two heart shaped rocks, I didn't remember them - but she did. (I put a photo in my album - if you want to take a peek)

Even though I miss her desperately and my heart is just broken that she had to go on without me, her love continues to amaze me.  I agree with you 100%, each of our precious angels is one of a kind.  

I wish you comfort and healing...
Hugs,
Melanie
ourbrandy

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Hi Ladies -

It's been a mixed day for me today - I guess some days are just like that.

We still did our candle ceremony last night and I told Brandy about the possibility of us getting another pup - I hope she would be OK with that.  The reason I thought about getting a little boy this time is just like you Melanie and Sue - I would be calling the new pup mommy's girl or my baby girl, etc.

Sue - I'm sorry that October is so rough for you.  Too many losses to bear.  I hope you can find some peace somehow this October.

Diann - Originally we had thought about getting a little friend or companion for Brandy.  But as the years went by and she got older she became the "queen bee" and very set in her ways.  We didn't think it would be fair to bring another dog on the scene.  We probably should have done it when she was much younger.  Oh well, I guess it was not meant to be.

I went to the store today and it still hurts every time I pass the aisle with all the dog treats and food.  I just hurry by there as fast as I can.

I hope you all have a nice evening and thanks again for listening - I need you all!

Barb
ourbrandy

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P. S. Melanie -

You mentioned I have courage to get another puppy.  I don't know if it's courage or just the need to have something to "mother" and hold again.  I just miss that so much, especially the snuggling at night when we would watch TV and then snuggle in bed.

Take care - sending hugs your way.

Barb
LeeLeesMama

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Hi Barb,
I'm sorry you're having one of "those days" today - I completely understand - I think we all feel that way sometimes.  I feel like you about the shopping - I make my hubby buy the dog food - I don't even go in that area if I can help it - too many reminders. I missed the candle ceremony again - I'm going to have to do what Sue said and just have my own ceremony I think. 

Barb, your Brandy sounds like such a sweet, loving girl I don't think that she wouldn't want her folks to be alone if you are up to opening your home to another little soul. Besides, she knows she'll always be your girl and no one will ever take her place in your heart.  Let your Brandy be your guide and if it is meant to be then you'll cross paths with the perfect little pup to bring you some smiles.

I hope your Wednesday is a better day, and I think it takes courage to want to "Mother" again.  It is more than I can handle ....

Hugs all around friends..
Melanie


renkma

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Just sneaking in to give you a hug Melanie.

Hugs to all you wonderful souls in suffering right now :(
ourbrandy

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Melanie -

You always somehow make me feel better just reading your replies. 

We will let Brandy be our guide and I know she wouldn't want us to be alone and she would want us to share the love with another. 

Last night my hubby was at the cemetery (he works there part-time as the caretaker) and a lady was coming by walking her dog.  Lots of people walk their dogs in the cemetery, I guess because it's so peaceful.  Anyway, it was a little buff colored cocker spaniel.  He said the dog looked so much like Brandy it took his breath away.  The dog saw him and immediately laid down, turned over and wanted a belly rub.  By the time he got home he was in tears because he thought of Brandy right away.  He has such a tender heart and I felt so bad for him.  He has held a lot of the grief in, but last night he let it out.  I told him that I think his heart is so big that it has plenty of room in it to love another dog.

I hope that Lee Lee has been visiting you in your dreams and bringing you lots of "pretties."

Sue - How are you doing today?  I've been thinking of you and Rambo. 

((HUGS)) to both of you and anyone else that would like one.

Barb
LeeLeesMama

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Evie,
Hugs are always gratefully received and warmly returned. 
Good friends and hugs help us get through the darkest of days. 

Barb,
Your dear husband sounds like one in a million - any little soul would be grateful to have a dream home with you two.  I just know in my heart that it will all work out for you the way it is intended to.  

I hope you both have a good evening filled with only peaceful thoughts....
Big hugs...
Melanie

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Melanie and Barb
 Oh My gosh.. this afternoon I was doing alot of running around..well, all day actually...but at one point I had the strangest feeling come over me...it felt llike Rambo was there in the room with me...and then a few minutes later, I turned on facebook on my computer and one of the ads on the side of it...was titled a Puppy Named Rambo.... it was a little light coloured...a shih tzu or lapso apso....but in mind I think it was a sign from Rambo... I have been asking him all day for a sign that he is okay....You see when my daughter picked him out from all the puppies that day...she picked him cause all the others where together and he was on other side of room all by himself....and I know this sounds stupid,,,like I am 5 years old..but I cant help it... I just keep asking him to let me know that he is okay....and that he is playing with LeeLee and Brandy and Honey and all the furbabies and that he is not sitting in a corner all by himself looking for Momma or Daddy or Stephanie
I had just asked him not too long before these happened so I have decided it was a sign for him that all is well
I hope you both have a wonderful evening
Sue
Rambo's Momma


LeeLeesMama

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Hi Everyone,

Oh my goodness Sue, - you must be so happy, that is such a wonderful sign from your boy!!  All that together, asking him, feeling his presence and then seeing that the ad - it is way too much to be anything other than you precious boy saying "Hey Momma - I am doing just fine and I'm still watching over you" that is so awesome Sue!! Way to go Rambo!!!

Don't worry, your Rambo is not alone, I am sure he is with all his new friends, hanging out, playing, wiggling in the grass, laying in the sun - deciding which tree to put the next squirrel up.  They are together, just like all of us are sticking together - until we are all together again one day.   

With thoughts of our precious angels...
Hugs, Ladies
Melanie
ourbrandy

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Hi Melanie and Sue -

Sue, that was definitely a sign from Rambo.  How great is that!  I think that our angels send us subtle signs.  Sometimes we pick up on them and sometimes not.  There have been a couple of times lately when we've been watching TV and a character pops up whose name is Brandy.  Now I know that's kind of a common name, but to me I'm hoping it's Brandy's way of saying she's around too.  Maybe I'm grasping at straws, but sometimes that's what I need to do.

Melanie, yes my hubby is one in a million.  I'm so glad to have found him and we've spent the last 21 years enjoying life together.  At first he had said we would never be able to have another dog because he just loved Brandy so much, but now I think he sees that he can love again and that's what Brandy would want.

It's kind of a dreary, drizzly day here, but for some reason my mood isn't the same.  I think I'm beginning to find joy in small things, even though I still cry at certain times when I read things or think of all that we are missing with Brandy gone.  Maybe that will always be.

I'm wishing for both of you a peaceful day with thoughts of Lee Lee, Rambo and Brandy playing with all their new friends.

Hugs,
Barb
sharkey905

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Thank you both ladies

I feel so much better today after the signs from Rambo yesterday,, I convinced myself that they were signs from him,,but needed to hear it from both of you. Thank you for your kind words.
I had also been asking him the last few days to help Bear find a place to go...cause as of Sunday night he didnt have anywhere to go...and then by Tuesday morning he had a place close to where his owner lives
Hugs to both of you and your beautiful baby girls
Sue
Rambo's Momma
LeeLeesMama

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Hi Barb and Sue,

It is so good to hear that you both are having a better day today.  That warms my heart and I am glad for you - it is amazing how just a sign from your angels can lift the clouds and lighten your burden a little isn't it.  Finding joy in the small things, as Barb said, is a good place to begin to heal just a bit.  

I wish you both a good evening - keep looking for those signs okay...
Many hugs,
Melanie

(P.S. - Please send up a little prayer for my dog "Licky", she was bitten by a snake today - poor girl's face is huge.  She'll be okay in a day or so - but she feels pretty bad right now - Thanks)
ourbrandy

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Oh, Melanie, I'm so sorry about Licky getting bit by a snake.  I will definitely say a prayer that she will be alright.

We are watching the neighbor's dog again this weekend, but this time she will be at our house overnight.  They asked us to watch her and we just didn't want her to be all alone in the house with no one there.  It's supposed to be stormy this weekend too, so I don't know how well she does during storms.  She's getting older and shouldn't be allowed alone overnight by herself any more.  I guess it will be a good "test" to see if we want to foster or not.

There's supposed to be a hurricane (or tropical storm) headed to the gulf states.  I hope that won't impact where you are Melanie.

I hope everyone has a good weekend with lots of signs and dreams of our babies.

Barb
sharkey905

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Melanie
 I will defiantely say a prayer for Licky... poor girl
And you are right,, just the least little sign from our babies can help so much.
Barb
 Ya, it will be a great way for you to find out if you will want to foster or even adopt another furbaby.
I know before Bear came(he's leaving tomorrow afternoon)  I didnt know if I could ever have another dog....but having him here,,,has shown me that I will definately want another dog...not in the next few weeks (my daughter thinks the sooner the better) ...but I am still thinking about after Christmas.. I need time
I am working both days this weekend so I wont be on here much,, I hope you both have a wonderful peaceful weekend as you get ready for your vacations
Love
Sue
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ourbrandy

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Hi Sue and Melanie -

Since posting before I kind of had a mini-meltdown.  Since we are having our neighbor's dog we will need to put up a gate to our upstairs.  Our stairs are not carpeted and she's an older dog so wouldn't want her to fall down or slip.  We had a gate for Brandy the last few months of her life - we carried her up and down the stairs because of the falling issue.

So I was thinking - oh my gosh, I'll have to look at Brandy's gate again by the stairs and the tears started to come.  That gate hasn't been up since July 13th when Brandy passed.  I was really having a hard time with that thought and then came up with another.  My neighbor runs a home daycare, so I called and asked her if we could borrow her gate when she brings Riley's bed over.  That way it's not the same gate as we had for Brandy but Riley would still be protected.  Whew!

Don't work too hard this weekend Sue, and stay out of the rain Melanie - but have a good one.

Barb


LeeLeesMama

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Hi Sue and Barb,

Barb, things like that sure can give you a setback  :(   it seems to be the things that I'm not expecting or hadn't thought about that hit me the hardest - they sneak up and knock the wind out of you.  I'm glad you have that other gate to use - that will make it a bit easier - good thinking.  It is good that she is going to be with you two instead of home alone in the weather - I hope all goes smoothly for you. I'll be interested to hear how you felt about having company in your home again - I'll bet you will have some reminders of your sweet Brandy.

Sue, I hope Bear has a smooth transition to his new family - I'm sure he will do just fine since your Rambo had a hand in the arrangements.  And it may be a good thing that you are scheduled to work this weekend - keeping busy.  Sounds like Bear has helped a little with the decision of having another dog or not - maybe that was his purpose in coming to you?  

Yes Barb, we have our eye on Tropical Storm Karen.  They say it will go across just the southern tip of Louisiana and then make a turn to the East and make landfall around Mobile, Alabama  We are north of New Orleans about 1-1/2 hours - so we may not even have much rain, however it is raining now.  But you can't afford not to be watching - they said Hurricane Katrina was going to Alabama for the longest time - but it ended up barreling right over us.
 
Licky is doing much better...  She lives over at my Mom's house and she called me to say that Licky had been playing with another of my dogs, little Betty Jean.  So I guess the benadryl and carprofen must have helped her considerably. Thank you both for your prayers.

I guess we'll begin gathering "vacation" things tomorrow - I don't mind saying I'm freaking out a little bit about this trip - I just can't imagine not packing all Lee Lee's leashes, clothes, toys, food, meds, her little bed... she had almost as much stuff as we had.  It is just wrong!!!!   Say a little prayer for me please...  

I hope you both have a good weekend - you will be in my thoughts. Talk to you soon...
Sending love and peace,
Melanie
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Hi Melanie,

I'm glad to hear Licky is doing better. Roxy and I said a little prayer after we read about her. I know about the snake bite business. Penny got it twice and several too close encounters, that I knew about. I always worried about Penny and now I'll worry about Roxy. Especially since my son stepped over a baby Copperhead just to the right of our back step yesterday evening. I've had an eye on the ground every time I've taken Roxy out since then. 

We too have an eye on Karen. You must be pretty close to us. I think we are going to be okay. I saw an update a while ago and it looks like it's heading for the Florida panhandle, but it's kind of like Yogi Berra said, "It ain't over till it's over." Maybe it will fall apart and just be rain.

We'll be praying for you as you prepare for your trip without LeeLee. I know it will be tough for you, but have a good trip.

Bryan
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Hi Melanie
I love cyclone season, (cyclone = hurricane which is an American word) at the moment we are in the build up AKA tropo season, always over 90 and always over % humidity which tends to sent people who are not used to it a bit crazy. I can't wait for cyclone season, I love rain and i love storms. My advice, find somewhere safe and enjoy the sound of the wind and rain. I go to Denver next week so the I can get away from this yucky weather...plus It been years since I have experienced fall.
Barb I can relate, i keep fixing holes in my fence, but i dont need to anymore. I have had a really sad day, it was 5 weeks yesterday, and I find I need and miss her more then ever. Today I had a moment like yours just making my bed. Liffey loved helping. So now i can't even make a bed without crying, I keep expecting her to be there. She didn't really help, she wanted to be under the sheet. And if I didn't watch she would push the top sheet and everything else off the bed. I realized I don't want another pet, ever, I just want Liffey. Life is just not fair at all sometimes.
I find I'm crying more, I hope you are doing better.
Diann



LeeLeesMama

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Bryan,
Thanks so much - they never seem to learn about those snakes.  And do be careful in your yard - that is way to close for comfort. I've always heard that where there is one small snake there are others.

I think you may be right about "Karen" - looks much weaker this morning, however is it further west than they originally thought it would be - south of Morgan City.  We should be ok here north of the lake and I believe I read that you were in South MS, so you should be good too. Like you said - we'll need to keep watching.

I appreciate so much your prayers for my upcoming trip - it will be hard for sure - it just won't be the same without my angel.  We used to plan everything we did according to where she could go and what she could do - it feels foreign to not have to think like that now.

Your little Roxy is sooooo cute.  I'm glad Penny brought you together - I believe she will be a wonderful addition to your family, bringing some much needed smiles and eventually a bit of healing.  Thank you again Bryan, blessings to you and your family...

Melanie
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Hi Melanie and Sue:

Well, it didn't go exactly like I thought it would taking care of Riley.  When the neighbors brought her over she seemed a little stressed, but that was natural.  She had never been over here before and even though Brandy had visited over at their place Riley and Brandy didn't hit it off too well.  But after they left she seemed to settle down a little.  In fact she ate all the food I put out for her and drank her water as well.  She fell asleep on her bed that they brought over while we watched TV.

We let her out before we went to bed and she barked a little then, but we thought maybe it was because she wasn't used to be hooked on our side of the fence.  So we brought her in and we went upstairs for some much needed sleep - NOT!  She barked and barked for over an hour.  We couldn't risk bringing her upstairs with us because of her arthritis issues (she could barely make it down our back steps), so I went downstairs with her for a while but she was still panting and barking.  So, although we didn't want to, we had to bring her back to her own house to sleep.  I felt bad about it and guilty, but it's the only way we (and she) were going to get any sleep.  So I guess we'll do the same tonight. 

We feel like somehow we failed in our attempt to take care of her.

I'm glad the storm is bypassing you Melanie.  That area doesn't need any more storms!

As you pack for your trip I know it will be hard.  Hopefully your memories of previous trips will make you smile a little bit at the time you had together with your Lee Lee.  And the candle and whatever you bring with of hers will help too.

Sue - I'm hoping you are not working too hard and the transition with Bear went smoothly.

I'm sending both of you hugs for the rest of the weekend.

Barb
LeeLeesMama

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Hi Diann,
I used to enjoy the rain and stormy weather also - but that was a while ago.  We have hurricanes frequently here (though we have not had one this year) and it used to be kind of exciting  - but since Hurricane Katrina plowed over us, I don't like them any more.  We lost about 35 trees, sustained damage to our home (new roof) and were out of electricity for almost 3 weeks.  And the worst part is a few years ago Lee Lee developed an awful phobia to loud noises, thunder, guns, etc - so I came to dread them.  

I hope you have a good trip to the states next week - I hope the travel and new "scenery" will provide a little distraction for you.  I looked at the Denver weather - it is 50 and sunny today - sounds nice right now. 

I will be thinking of you...
Hugs of comfort coming to you today...
Melanie

LeeLeesMama

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Hi Barb,

Poor little Riley, I guess it was just to stressful for her wasn't it?  Sounds like you did everything right and everything you could to make her comfortable - so don't think you failed.  Change is hard sometimes as they age - it is definitely not a reflection of your care. 

Thanks Barb, we went shopping today and picked up some last minute items and drinks for the ice chest - it reminded me of last years vacation when she had her own ice chest filled up with her fresh chicken and beef strips and all her meds and snacks - enough for 3 weeks....  It will be ok though, I'll get through it and when it's your turn I know you will too.  

Hugs to you and to Sue - thinking of you both today...
Melanie

LeeLeesMama

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Just like any other day....

Nine years ago today, Tuesday, October 5, 2004 began just like any other day. Waking up, getting ready for work, heading out the door. But little did I know, my life as I knew it was about to change forever.  A few miles from home a pitiful little puppy sat alone, waiting....

It was still dark as we drove along - suddenly my husband slammed on the brakes and swerved, narrowly missing her as she sat there in the road.  I've picked up so many strays over the years that he didn't say a word - he just pulled over.

I'll never forget opening the door and stepping out to look back behind the car.  She was already running to meet me in that adorable little puppy lope, tripping over her own little feet, a little red and white angel, ears flopping, her little mouth open in a smile.  I bent down to pick her up - she was so small that she easily fit in one hand.  She was dirty, covered in fleas and had mange - but she was oh so sweet.  She was so young too, sucking on my fingers - and she had wonderful puppy breath - Yeah!

I held her in my lap, playing with her on the way to work.  We pulled up at my office at the same time my boss arrived, I held her up in one hand for him to see, he just smiled and shook his head.  We bathed her and gave her food and water - she was so young she couldn't even lap the water right.  I discovered later when I took her outside that she knew how to lick the dew off the grass - how sad is that.

I already had several more rescued dogs and I didn't really need another, but she had already stolen my heart - I just didn't know it yet. I was changed forever on that day - I will never be the same...

And that is how our love story began, a precious little puppy discarded beside the road like a piece of trash - she became my life's greatest treasure.... 

~~~

I love you My Little Angel - forever... And I'll miss you until I see you again.... 

[leeleebaby]
"One of the earliest photos of Lee Lee"


(Separated 30 weeks ago yesterday ~ but, 211 days closer to seeing you again My Angel)
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What a sweet story and obviously you were meant to have her in your life.  Poor little girl to be so small and so alone and in such danger.  Have to wonder where did she come from and how did she get where she was.

Carole
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Thank you so much for sharing this story of how Lee Lee found you and you her.
Meant to be for sure. It put tears in my eyes .

God bless you and others who rescue these beautiful pooches!


Sue (sueannMN, Mandy's mom forever)
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Hi Melanie
Wow, that's such a cool story....yes I agree with the other posts, you and LeeLee were meant to be. I love the photo....she looks like she should be uncomfortable, but is obviously not! What a cute baby. I'm glad you have a happy anniversary to help you remember good times.
I understand not loving storms, there have a been a few big events here too, and there are people who dread the cyclone season. My brother slept though one of the biggest cyclones in Australia's history, dispute the roof coming off the house.....he has never lived that down.
I was worried about Liffey and her first thunder storms, it was less then a year ago...but she was fine, most dogs hate the thunder and lightening storms, not Liffey she slept through them. And fireworks....gosh I miss her.
I can't wait to be back in Denver....50 I will be cold!
Diann
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Melanie,
I didn't know how Lee Lee came into your life, how wonderful, it was just meant to be. You are such a caring person, and the love you have for Lee Lee will never fade. Please take care of yourself, Lee Lee is watching over you every day sending you love.

Bailey's Mom
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Oh Melanie - what a wonderful story and picture of little Lee Lee.  How blessed she was that you found her and that she found you.  I like to think that God has a way of intervening in these matters.  You were at the right place at the right time.

October 5 is kind of a special day for me too - it's the day my son was born 41 years ago.  He's my middle child and only boy and is a real joy to me.  We went to his birthday party yesterday.  It was good to get out of the house and see everyone, but again another "challenge."  I was telling my youngest daughter that we don't know if we will go away for Christmas this year or whether we will celebrate or not.  I didn't think she would understand.  She said "So you are going to isolate yourself from your family just because of Brandy?"  I let the remark just go, but all the way home the tears were flowing.  I guess unless you are a true animal lover you can't understand.

How long of a drive will you have for your vacation?  Ours is about 13-1/2 hours.  I prefer to just do it in one day and get to our destination.  It will seem odd not to have that furry little bundle on my lap, but I'll get through it just as you will.

I hope you have a beautiful Sunday of remembering your special girl and giving thanks for her presence in your life.

Hugs,
Barb
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oh Melanie,
What a wonderful story and what a lucky girl she is to have been found by you. It is a match made in heaven by the angels themselves. Such a connection can never be undone. She surely waits for you and looks over you with love. LeeLee come down and kiss your momma, she needs you.

Teresa
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forever and a day.
LeeLeesMama

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Thank you all so much for reading about my little baby's beginning and for all your wonderful comments and support.  

Carole~
I have wondered many, many times what happened, she was on a dark, winding, little country road, not near any houses, and we never saw any other puppies or a mama - so I feel sure some horrible person threw her out.  It is probably a good thing that I don't know who it was - but they don't know what love they missed out on. 

Sue~
It was a hard story for me to tell, it just breaks my heart - my sweet little baby. But she was and continues to be such a wonderful blessing to me - I believe it was meant to be too.  I have taken in many dogs over the last 40 or so years - but she was THE special one.

Diann~
Yes she does look very awkward in that photo doesn't she - but she slept like that a lot in the first few weeks - on her belly all stretched out - sometimes she'd sleep upside down too.  She was the funniest little girl - she would be totally zonked out and if something startled her - she was on her feet in an instant, barking and growling something fierce. 

Jill~
You are so right, my love for my angel will always be a part of me - it continues to grow even now.  I have wondered many times what my life would have been, what turns it would have taken had we not gone by there that day and seen her - I can't imagine not ever knowing her.

Barb~
I feel you are exactly right - God intended our paths to cross - our meeting was part of His plan for sure.  We were meant to be together for a time - I only wish we still were - but one day we will be again, and I wait for that day.
Happy belated birthday to your son.  I'm sorry...I know your heart is aching, I think you described exactly the way my family feels about me not celebrating the Holidays this year - that I am isolating myself because of Lee Lee - they didn't say that - they didn't reply at all.  But I believe that people who haven't gone thru a loss like this are incapable of understanding how broken we are. They think they get it but in reality they have no idea - they can't. My situation is a little different - no children - but only you know what you can and can't handle.
Our drive is not as long as yours - about 9 hours, and we almost always drive straight through.  It will be strange not to have to think about stopping for our babies along the way won't it?

Teresa~
I feel that I was the lucky one to have had her 8-1/2 years. Now the Angels are enjoying my baby and her pretties until I can be with her again.  I hope she hears you Teresa and comes to see me - you are so right - I need her.

Thank you again, each and every one, for reading about my little Lee Lee, your sweet comments mean the world to me.  I know you are all missing your babies just like I am - May you each feel the presence of your precious angels in a special way.

Hugs to each of you...
Melanie
sharkey905

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Melanie
 So glad to hear that Licky is doing better.  I loved the story of how you and LeeLee found each other...made me cry..(but everything is again today...not a good day) It was defiantely meant to be...the people who left her are the ones who missed all the love she had to give...but God knew that you too were meant to be together
Barb.. 
 Riley was just to stressed to be away from her house(had she ever visited you before).. I know my Rambo's would of gone crazy to be in someone else's house without us....a couple of years ago,,we had to go to a wedding..Rambo loved my sister,,,his Auntie,,,she came to our house to stay with him while we were gone (prob about 9-10 hours)...he wouldnt play,,sat at the top of the stairs looking at the front door for us...the only time he has happy that day,,was when Auntie went to get them Mcdonalds for supper....
I understand about the gate...We had one for Rambo for in front of the balcony door. A few times he went through the screen trying to get out into the backyard  before we got it open. Well while Bear was here--because of his shedding and my daughters allergies we decided to not let him in the living room...At first, I didnt think I could have the gate back in our house...and this is the stupid part...I was okay with it,,because it wasnt used for the same reason we used it for Rambo... He laid in a different spot in the dining room that Rambo laid in...which was a good thing,,,cause I dont know how I would of reacted if he laid in Rambo's spot
going to sign off,,,about to have a meltdown,,,between the time of Oct it is,,, and Bear leaving and my daughter is leaving Wed to go to New Jersey with her boyfriend and his family for a wedding and wont be back for Thanksgiving --all too much for me right now
I hope you both have wonderful weather for your upcoming vacations,,and know that your girls are watching over you, and Rambo will be taking care of them
Sue
Rambo's Momma

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Hi again
As far as your family not understanding about not wanting to celebrate Christmas this year because of the loss of our babies..>I say we have to do whatever we feel is right for us,,,,no one else's opinion should affect us taking care of our selves and doing what is best
I am still going to go for dinner at my fathers...he is 85 and I just cant tell him that I would rather just stay in my bed and sleep instead of dinner..but if something happened to him and it was his last Christmas, I would feel guilty for the rest of my life...and I dont need the additional stress right now
I have told my husband we are not likely putting up the tree this year or decorating
Take care
Sue
Rambo's Momma
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Melanie, what an amazing story of how you & Lee Lee came to find each other! I just loved reading it...

- Kelly
Blackie's mommy
Mihaela

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Oh, Melanie, just read the story of how Lee Lee came into your life and it brought tears to my eyes. There's no doubt you two were meant to find each other. Hugs, take care!
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Hi Ladies,
Sue, I'm so sorry you are having such a bad day and Barb I know you've been terribly down as well - it is just so hard isn't it?  Here at my work we had a very sad case over the weekend that didn't end well (a foal) - and typing in all the medical records gets the best of me sometimes  - and I'm right back where I always end up - at her last few little days and all she went thru.  So with that on top of everything else - I've been very weepy today too. 

Sue, I want to apologize... I somehow totally missed that Bear would eventually go back to his original owners - my crazy mind just didn't get that part.  So.. I'm quite sure some, if not all, of my comments made absolutely no sense at all - I'm sorry. That is a good outcome for Bear though.

Thank you both for the sweet comments for my little angel - that was a hard story to write - my poor little baby - she had such a hard time in this world...  Now here I go again.............

Pulling myself together.......... We all seem to be worrying about the holidays - but I feel we each have to do what we need to do - just to make it thru - and it may not necessarily be the same thing - each of our families are different.  Sue, you do bring up a good point, my Mom is older too, 79, so I will probably be either going over for a while or at least calling. But I won't be decorating and I know that I just can't deal with the gift giving - it just seems so meaningless to me right now - I'd just cry thru it and ruin it for everyone else anyway - so this is best for me.  

I hope we can all find a little peace for our hearts as we struggle along. Hang in there my friends...

Ladies... Is it time for another group hug?

Melanie


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Melanie - It's definitely time for a group hug....hugs are always welcome by me.

It seems like we are all having a difficult time right now.  Like I said I cried all the way home from my son's house.  It just seems certain things trigger it and the insensitivity of certain people just gets to me.  I guess maybe I need to just let things roll off my back, but sometimes it's difficult.  Brandy's passing has magnified everything for me.  Things that wouldn't have bothered me before seem monumental now.  I almost wish I still had a job to go to, maybe that would help.

Sue - I'm glad that things worked out with Bear.  I know you gave him the best care you could under the circumstances and that he will have a good forever home.  Rambo would be so proud of you!

We've been thinking even if we get a new pup we might take in a foster also.  I guess time will tell.

The holidays won't be easy for sure, but with the help of you dear friends I can get through it.

Have a peaceful rest of the day -

Sending you both my hugs,
Barb

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Kelly,
I'm glad you enjoyed Lee Lee's story - I appreciate you taking the time to stop by and visit.  She was my special angel and always will be - it helps a little to write some of my memories down.  I want to capture all the details I can remember before time causes them to fade.  I know your little Blackie has been waiting at the Bridge for a while now - but I don't believe that longing ever goes away - we will always remember...

Mihaela,
Thank you so much - I feel we were meant for each other too.  Poor little angel, she needed a Mama and I needed a baby.... Oh how I miss her....  How are you doing today sweetie? Getting by? I think of you and your sweet Rufus often, I hope you've been feeling him nearby. The autumn seems to be a hard time for some reason, I think it's another mark we pass by without out babies for one thing. That and maybe the memories of enjoying the season with them in the past.  I hope you are finding a little peace along the way.  

Hugs to both of you today...
Melanie

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Oh Melanie

 Yes a group hug is definately needed again....I cant imagine working where you do right now and having to type in the medical records as you have to do with things that dont turn out well with animals....but I think you are  a very strong woman to be able to do....and dont worry about your comments about Bear not making sense...lol...you know,,,,I didnt even for one minute think it didnt make sense......I am not exactly thinking clearly lately anyway
Barb...
thank you so much for your comments about Bear. Yes, I think Rambo would be happy that we took care of him....events now, like someones birthdays and holidays just seem so different now , dont they,
And I know, eventhough no one has made on of the comments to me that I had read on here that some have heard...its only a dog,,,arent you over that yet,,,,etc.....I know that they are all probably tired of hearing about Rambo...and you know what,, I dont care,,,, I have decided if I feel the need to talk about him to make me feel better at the moment,, I am going to......
Forever in our hearts---our beautiful furbabies
Sue


 

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You ladies are so wonderful !!!  I wish it could be an "in person" hug - but.....

(((((((((((((( Barb and Sue ~ and anybody else that needs an understanding Hug ))))))))))))))

Wishing peace to all who have grieving hearts.......it's been a day......
Melanie

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Well, Lee Lee, My Little Angel, today is seven months... and as my dear friend would say, it is still "all about you".   I miss you more and more as the days pass by - I didn't know that was possible.  My heart is very heavy, weighed down with just the horror of everything - it wasn't supposed to be like this, we were going to have many more wonderful years together, many more walks, more days watching you laying in the yard enjoying the sunshine , more comfortable nights with you on your bed or on the couch... many more years of just our ordinary old "life".  As I sit here this morning before work, typing these few words - you are supposed to be on your little bed under my desk - but that spot is empty now - all your favorite places - empty.  My tears fall for you my sweet little Baby Doll - as hard as I try, I can't seem to drag my thoughts away from all that you went through in your little life - you struggled so hard just to live.  I just miss you so bad....so very bad...

        "One tear rolling down a cheek can hold a thousand memories"

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           "My Little
Angel"
 
 Mama luvs you err and err... kisses and scratches...

(Separated Seven Months ago today - I can't wait to see you again)
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