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LeeLeesMama

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Lee Lee do you remember....

....that last day-trip we made as a family.  That October 28th last year was a beautiful sunny day, and you got to go and spend an entire day with all "your people".  It always made you so happy to have us all together at the same time. 

We went to see the old Civil War Iron Ship and you got to walk around outside and explore with us.  Then we went to that historic old house and they let you come into the pool house and into the garden - you sat there and listened to the stories like you knew exactly what they were saying.  And then we went to the Old Court House Museum - you couldn't go inside - but you had great time out on the front lawn for playing with that old green football.  We all took turns with you - we'd toss the football and you'd chase it down, bring it back and we'd toss it again.  You'd chew it a while, wiggle upside down a while, sun a while - what fun you had - it was a good day wasn't it Angel... 

Who knew it would be our last trip as a complete family...

Everyone wants to go on another family trip this Sunday Baby Doll.  I don't know what to do Angel...the timing...it lacks just one day being a year...I just don't know if I can get thru it... Come and see me and let me know what to do... 

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Lee Lee enjoying her green football that day ...

Mama luvs you err and err... Kisses and Scratches... 

(Separated 33 weeks ago today ~ but, 231 days closer to seeing you again My Angel)
Bedomom

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LeeLeesMama
Please go to the trip and bring that beautiful picture of Lee Lee with you and it will be a complete family trip as last year she is forever beautiful and lively as in the picture that is a forever moment. she hears you as she is around you and you know that love is eternal for my next trip I will bring the best picture of Bedo with me and will show him place where mama was born I think this will make me and him feel good you know that I have looked at most of our angels and I notice that they all do look like angels with lovely faces gentle kind and loving eyes elegant posture even to the day they are ready to cross the rainbow bridge our furry babies do beat us big time with age. Sometimes we may forget how smart and powerful they are . Lee Lee sat and listened to the lecture as she could have understood it in her own ways you know there are lot of things have said but they are subjected to interpretation. And Lee lee might just have done that Lee Lee never want to say good bye she is with you forever it is the thought that really counts. You are a very sweet mom I hope you will try to be brave for Lee Lee Lee because we used to care so much for our babies but we don't know how much we really need their tender loving care until they had advanced to heaven before us do you see how smart and powerful are our babies they don't want us to suffer and they are looking down and say we are here please be brave as you have a longer trip to make and someday we will be together as a family again sorry if there is any typo error as I m using my iphone take care LeeLeesmama. Hugs to you and Lee Lees and baby you know that antie is right just tell mama that!


LeeLeesMama

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Bedomom,
Thanks for your encouraging message and the thought of taking Lee Lee's photo - that's such a sweet idea.  I've decided to go - it's what Lee Lee wants me to do.  Might as well get another 1st out of the way I guess - and I will have her photo with me - thank you....  Your words are filled with wisdom and understanding - it will be a wonderful time when we are all reunited with our little angels in heaven one day. 

I hope you have a peaceful night Bedomom - I send a big hug to you and your babies... (((HUG)))

Melanie(LeeLee's Mama)


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I lost the sweetest kitty ever today. Our shop cat who we took in as a pregnant stray three years ago. She was our angel and our spokesmodel and our joy. She made our store feel like home to a ton of people. I found her dead-hit and run- in our parking lot this morning. I literally ache and feel raw and destroyed from the pain. I have cried myself sick today. We have posted pics of hrs beautiful self and our thoughts on Facebook but I just cannot pull it together! I am beyond miserable and hurt so much. She was our baby girl and I'm just angry and grieving and list. FB. Enchanting objects
LeeLeesMama

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Lesliann,
I'm very sorry for the tragic loss of your little kitty - bless you for taking her in and letting her feel love.  You've found a wonderful forum here in Pet Loss,  I hope you will continue to read the posts here and maybe find a little comfort being around people who understand your pain and sorrow.  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Lee Lee's Mama
Sitka3

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Melanie,
My thoughts are w/ you today, hon. Big HUGS to you!
I hope you have a good day.....Lee Lee will be at my girl's 18th b-day party at the bridge but she'll be with you, too. :)
~Sitka 
EliseT

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Dear Melanie,

So many truths, in Bedomom's wonderful words of comfort! Lee Lee is forever with you, on all of your trips - she is thinking of her mom every day and knows your love for her is forever and true. Yes, these kids are very smart and powerful - sometimes Buddy would watch a movie, and I knew he understood the meanings, in his special way of understanding. Our babies are enlightened beings - they never stray from God's presence. Their hearts are true and pure, and the love in their eyes shines forever. No small wonder we miss them so much, when they rise to heaven before us. But this is God's test, for us. Babies are teaching us to be stronger people - hardier for having loved them so well. Preparing us for more of God's work for the rest of our lives. I told Buds he was a tough task master...how many lessons God has given me through him, and will always give!

Our babies know that this temporary "good-bye" is only a physical one. We are, and always will be, with them.

Love and Hugs,

Elise, Buddy's mom
Susie65

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That's a beautiful post Elise, it helps to think of it that way.
sharkey905

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Melanie and Barb
Thank you both so much for your kind words about the new addition to our family..As I told Melanie I do have mixed feelings about it... but I am hoping that once he is here and we are into a regular routine everything will work out...eventhough it will be different  he will be treated just as well as Rambo was.. walked more times than any dog in the neighbourhood and spoiled.....I am sure Rambo will be around to teach him how to give us the look that gets him whatever he wants
Barb
I hope you are having a great vacation
Melanie
I hope you did go on that family outing today knowing that LeeLee is with you at all times
Hugs to you both
Sue
Rambo's Momma
LeeLeesMama

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Thank Your EVERYONE for your support once again - you are all so wonderful to me.  I did go on the family outing and I believe Lee Lee was with me - as we were driving up to my brothers house to meet them to leave - there was a great big "L" cloud in the southern sky behind his house.  I added a photo of it to the album in my profile if you'd like to take a look.  I took her photo with me, as bedomom suggested and managed to not ruin the trip for everyone - another first behind me...

~Bedomom~ I looked at that photo many times during the day - it was a great comfort to me - I thank you again for giving me the idea....

~Sitka~  Thank you... I 'm sure that was quite a party for your little baby  - I appreciate your kind thoughts so much...

~Elise~  I believe you are absolutely correct that our babies "...never stray far from God's presence."  That is so evident in their constant love and forgiveness..even the poor angels that experience abuse at the hand of a human - they are always ready with licks of love and tail wags of forgiveness. I just hope that I can pass this test... Your sweet Buddy was a special one Elise... Thank you so much for your sweet words...

~Sue~ I have you on my heart as you look toward welcoming this little one into your home.  Everything will be okay - puppies are 100% love.  Thank you for thinking of me about this trip - I did feel her with me - she gives me strength...

~Barb~ I know that you'll be headed back home in a couple of days, I am thinking of you - I hope your trip has been peaceful and relaxing even though I know you have missed your little girl. Do be careful...

Hugs to all...
Melanie
Jillbeane

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Melanie...I have been thinking of you and glad you made that trip...boy, was that ever a sign from Lee Lee...I have never seen a cloud shaped like that, you know she did this for you and loves you so much. Take care, my friend.

Jill...Bailey's Mom
LeeLeesMama

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Jill~
Thank you so much for looking at Lee Lee's cloud - I'm sure it was from her Jill, an "L" and it was right there behind there house, just where I would see it when we drove up - it's pretty neat isn't it?  I hope you are having a peaceful evening.  

Hugs,
Melanie


sharkey905

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Melanie
Sorry I am so late responding but with extra hours and getting ready for the new addition I have been behind in everything
I looked at your L cloud.....oh my gosh what a wonderful way for LeeLee to let you know how much she loves you and that she is with you every step of your life...She knew this outing would be hard for you (just as all the firsts are) so what better way than to show you she is with you
Have a wonderful day
Hugs
Sue
Rambo's Momma
Bedomom

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LeeLeesMama
That picture is like taken from heaven. When I first looked at Lee Lee picture I saw her look which is the same as my Bedo's at his last moment
The sad look but very powerful' that was why I had described her as triumphant. The look that has a strong combination of a very deep goodbye and deep caring beyond normal. I don't know how to describe it but just have a very strong feeling about it. Our strong bonds with our fury babies will lead us to the right place.
I am glad you have a good trip knowing that Double L is always by your side and in your heart.
Hugs to you and to Your "Beautiful Blessing"
Bedomom


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Hi Melanie and Sue:

Well, we are headed home tomorrow.  I guess all good things have to come to an end.  We've had a really nice vacation, lots of good weather and things to keep us busy.

Sue - I'm hoping that this new little pup will bring you so much happiness and love.  As I told Melanie, something wonderful happened while on our vacation.  We stopped in a little coffee shop in town and there was a little toy poodle who ran up to greet us.  She looked a lot like Brandy.  When I asked if we could hold her, the owner said "Sure - she loves people."  It gave us great comfort and a sense of peace to hold her.  Then I asked what her name was.  The owner said "Her name is Lee Lee."  How special is that?  A sign from both Brandy and Lee Lee.

Melanie - I had to look at the L shaped cloud before we headed for home.  That was definitely a sign from your angel and she was glad that you made the family trip.  Such love and devotion our pets have for us.

Most of tomorrow will be spent driving home, so I will reconnect the following day.  Halloween - a day when we always dressed up Brandy, at least with a little Halloween scarf.  It will be bittersweet, because it's also my youngest daughter's birthday.

Have a good day and "talk" to you soon,

Hugs,
Barb
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Oh Melanie,
She knew how hard it would be for you so she sent her love and support. She is there, right next to you, always remember that. We are one more day closer.


Teresa
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LeeLeesMama

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~Bedomom
Oh thank you so much - I think you described it perfectly - I do feel that our bonds are "beyond normal" in the sense of what is normal to most people - these little angels were and are just so much a part of us - who we "really" are on the inside.  I like that you have dubbed her "Double L" - how sweet that is and they really are our "Beautiful Blessings" - Bedomom - you have a way of saying the prettiest things. It is a comforting thought that Bedo and Lee Lee are waiting for us -Yes?  

~Sue
It was really a strange feeling to look up and see that "L" - I guess she knew how much I needed to "see" something from her - I'm kind of a "visual" person  - I guess Lee Lee understands me pretty well and that is why she sends "signs" that I can see more than feel. Sue, you must be so busy getting everything just right for your little one - Do you know exactly which day he will come home? I can imagine that you are so excited and perhaps a bit nervous - but he'll bring you smiles. Have you settled on a name?  I know that Halloween holds special thoughts of your Rambo...I'm thinking of you...

~Barb
Ahhh... that last day of vacation - it has really flown by hasn't it - enjoy every minute that you are there, I hope you've felt Brandy nearby often. Thanks for taking a moment to look at Lee Lee's "L" - as Bedomom said it was a picture from heaven!  My angel definitely knows how to get my attention in a hurry.  I hope that your long drive home will be uneventful - please be careful on the roads.  I will keep you in my prayers for a safe trip and during the Halloween holiday time...Happy Birthday to your daughter - we have close birthdays - mine is today, as you say, a bittersweet day... Please let us hear that you arrived safely..

~MarleyBarley
Thank you so much for stopping by to see me and Lee Lee - I'm grateful for your sweet words.  I've been reading your other posts and comments, I haven't replied to it but I have really enjoyed the thread "The Kindest Heart of All" - I believe that sometimes there are co-incidences and some times there are God-incidences. I know you are suffering so much in your grief for Marley - I feel like that lady was sent by the Angels to comfort your heart. We are counting down the days aren't we - I feel like I'm "wishing my life away" sometimes - just wanting and waiting to see my baby...and we will certainly see them again...

Hugs and wishes for peace to each of you dear ladies...
Melanie

sharkey905

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Barb and Melanie
Barb
I hope you had a nice vacation and have a safe trip home... how wonderful that Brandy sent you that little dog to talk to and hold...a sign from both Brandy and LeeLee.
I hope your daughter has a Happy Birthday
Not sure how Halloween will be for me this year either, We used to dress Rambo up and he would go out with his Daddy for treats from the neighbours...which he got..

Melanie
Sorry,, I just cant seem to process things right now.been alot of that lately anyway,. I read your reply to Barb last night,,,but didnt really sink in till this morning... so Happy Belated Birthday
I will be picking up the puppy around 2:30 Thursday afternoon...He is being neutered and microchipped today..I am going to call the Humane Society this afternoon and check on him
No, not 100% sure on the name yet... We have been throwing names around but seem to always come back to Ben (my daughter thinks that wont confuse him as much) but we have decided to wait till hes home and decide for sure
Hope you both have a nice day
Hugs
Sue
Rambo's Momma
Bedomom

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Dear  LeeLeesMama,
Thank you for thinking about me and my boy,I just write what I feel .  Sometimes I am too quick and straight and afraid that I might have said something wrong.  Yes I am famous for giving out nick names, some babies still using their nicknames to this day, I don't know why I have this habit since I was a child.  It is nice to hear that your dad was funny and liked to tease, so was my dad - at one time he told me in my teen years that when I walk, I make sound like a flock of elephants comming from jungle.  If I were to talk back, he would say, "listen, I am your dad, I eat salt more than you eat rice, when there are flies I can tell which one is male and which one is female" that was so funny.
You are a very Special Mom too, that's why Lee Lee had sent you signal from The Above, I think she may not put Double L as she wanted to tell you that she is a big girl now, she wants mom to be ok., yes sometimes it is ok to feel sad, it reminds us of how much of a human we really are. I am sure from all these experience we have been sharing, we will find peace and wisdom and the process is a real challenge.
Hugs to you and Double L (they are always our babies)
Bedomom
LeeLeesMama

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~Sue
Thank you for the wishes!  I'll be thinking of you tomorrow as you bring your little one home and begin your new adventure.  When you can take a break - let us know how it's going. :) 

~Bedomom
Your dad sounds like an awesome man, you have some wonderful memories of him. I look forward to meeting him and your baby some day.  I know you are right - our babies do want us all to be ok - but it is hard to feel joy right now.

Have a good night ladies...Hugs
Melanie
ourbrandy

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Hi all:

Well, back to reality.  Vacation was great but it's nice to get back home to familiar places and things that give us comfort.  When we got home last night it was raining really hard, but we did see Brandy's tree in the back yard still standing and I know she watched over the house for us, as well as being with us in North Carolina.

Sue, I've been thinking about you all day and your new little family member.  You must be so excited and happy to be welcoming another little furry angel into your lives.  Please let us know how it is going and if you decided on a name.

I still have mixed feelings.  I'm wanting another puppy to love.  I know I won't feel the same as Brandy and I'm hoping not to compare too much.  I guess that's what's holding me back.  But we need a new purpose now in our lives and when the time is right we will open our hearts again.

Melanie - I was thinking about the picture of Lee Lee with the football.  Brandy had a little soccer ball that she had since she was a pup, but in the last couple of months of her life she didn't want to play with it any more.  We also tried to get her to catch a frisbee, but we would throw it and she would try to pick it up with her little teeth and couldn't get it.  It just amazes me how much joy that our babies brought to us. 

It's a rainy and dreary Halloween here in Wisconsin.  I sure will miss Brandy going to the door to greet all the trick or treaters.  She loved kids and they all wanted to pet her.

I am so thankful that this forum has brought some wonderful friends into my life.  I don't know what I would have done without the support of all of you.

Many hugs to all of you -

Barb
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Barb... glad to hear you had a good vacation and that you are back safely... I know Brandy was watching over you.
I have been having mixed feelings about the new dog...yesterday I had a meltdown again, because of it...second guessing myself if it was too soon,,, or if Rambo would be mad at us for bringing another lab into his house....then the humane society called...and me, ,being a freak like I am,, started panicking that something went wrong during the neutering...right then, I knew I did want the dog
We havent totally decided on his name yet...We have all picked out different names..but then one of us doesnt like it...we keep going back to Ben..but we have decided to wait till he gets here tomorrow morning and then we will figure it out. I am worried about comparing him to Rambo,, but we are just going to take one day at a time and see how it goes....
Its a rainy dreary day here in Ontario as well,, and I worked days today,,,and was worried how I would handle Halloween..without dressing Rambo up and taking him out for treats,,,but surprisingly I have managed to be okay...
I will post a picture of the new puppy soon
Have a nice night
Sue
LeeLeesMama

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Hi Barb and Sue..
We have rain also - unfortunately it suits my mood tonight - rough day... We haven't had any trick-or-treaters yet - that is ok with me - Lee Lee would always bark at them with that deep, gruff voice...she never liked children that much - they scared her and that bark scared them.

Barb, I'm so glad you enjoyed your time away, but I can relate about being back home - the first thing I did was to walk out to Lee Lee's spot. I'm becoming a bit of a hermit I think - I just feel more comfortable here where I don't have to pretend or make small talk.  I feel for you Barb, it must have been difficult to see your little Brandy slowing down a bit and not wanting to play with her toys. But I guarantee you - she's not slow now - she's running like the wind with all her friends.

Sue, I'm sure that once you have the little guy home and are around him a little while you will "know" what his name is.  I don't think I have ever named one before I spent a little time with them - I usually end up calling them by some ridiculous pet name that sticks with them - like a puppy I adopted once whose front legs trembled when he would sit - he became "Shakey" or "Shakey Wakey"- there were dozens of goofy names like that.  I look forward to a photo as soon as you can.

Hugs Ladies,
Melanie
LeeLeesMama

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Lee Lee I remember...

...your favorite old chair at work.  It wasn't much to look at, it was kind of old and the seat was a little tattered but you loved it.  You slept in it for hours folded into some of the most awkward positions - you didn't look comfortable at all - but I suppose you were.  I'd "fix it" for you with your jacket to lay on and say "jump" and up you go - I'd cover you up and it was nap time.  You'd sleep a while, get up, turn around and go right back to sleep - sometimes with you head hanging half off, sometimes curled into a little ball.  

The old chair was in front of the window and you liked to sit there staring at the squirrels that came to eat acorns or play in the tree nearby. If I happened to see one that you hadn't noticed yet I'd say "Look! There he is!" and you'd jump up and start fussing at him, whining and barking - it just wasn't fair that he was "right there" and you couldn't "get" him was it baby?  

If you were up there when someone walked in, you'd jump down and start looking to me to get you a pretty for them and jump back up and sit so sweet with your pretty, ears slicked back, talking, waiting for them to notice you - such a little ham you were.

I'll always be sorry that they decided to move your old chair to another building when they were updating a few years ago. I'd have go back there occasionally and of course you'd go too and when you saw your chair you'd run straight to it and hop up.  I know that you didn't understand, I'm so sorry Baby Doll.  I can hardly bear to go back there now and see it empty - it just breaks my heart...  
I miss you Angel...

Lee Lee in her beloved old chair...
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Mama luvs you err and err...Kisses and Scratches....

(Separated 34 weeks ago today ~ but, 238 days closer to seeing you again My Angel)



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Melanie,
I love your pictures of LeeLee in her chair. What wonderful memories, it's so hard, isn't it, closer each day.

Teresa
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Forever and a day
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Hi Melanie

You so right your LeeLee doesn't look comfy in that chair, but like you said she must of be.
She looks so cute it makes me smile from ear to ear which as you know it's rare thing these days, I thank you for sharing these most precious photos of your sweets LeeLee.

How you doing ok my friend.

DarrenS
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Oh Lee Lees, You Little "Beautiful Blessing" I don't know how you could you feel comfortable in that chair, something so plain yet so simple and may be a little silly but it had marked deeply your mom's heart.  LeeLeesMama, I am sorry, but it is ok, they are such beautiful memories and I know you miss her very much.  Lee Lee, I love you more and more when I look at you, your beauty is just much more than skindeep. you are a very soulful girl and your mama knows that well.  I am sure all of you abandoned angels are REAL REAL ANGELS SENT From The Above;  and all of your mamas are  Earth Angels who are so sweet and kind to take you in their hearts.  Lee Lee's Mama, Her comming to you was a blessing as she and you have had many good loving times and I pray that from now on you will treasure all the memories as blessings in your heart in a very comforting ways.  Beautiful memories that the richest ones may not even have..I know you miss Lee Lee so much and I feel what you feel as  my eyes are red while typing this as I want to hold my tears at work.  Grieving for our beloved angels is ok, it is a kind of grief that reminds us about our deepest innerself and thank you to our angels from the above, they had been part of us with their physical beauties and now forever they are with us with their beautiful spirits.
Hugs to you Double L's Mama and Beautiful Lee Lee
 

  
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Hi Melanie, 

I love these pictures of your Lee Lee! It is so amazing, these positions that our babies would get themselves into...looks so uncomfortable to us, but for them, it's all good! She is so adorable, with her tail tucked under, one leg hanging off and her front legs crossing over...what beautiful memories of your sweetie pie. I can remember Buddy getting himself into the darndest poses...head hanging off the couch like he would do from time to time...why he wouldn't have had a stiff neck after awhile, was beyond me! 

As Bedomom writes - these babies come to us, bearing so many blessings and gifts for our lives. I don't think we can ever completely comes to terms with them physically being away from us, as we continue our journey here on Earth, but in time, I am hoping the happy thoughts and memories of our sweet times with them will outweigh the grief and sadness in our hearts.

Their sweet spirits and blessings are ours to keep and treasure, always. 

Love and Hugs, 

Buddy's mom
LeeLeesMama

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~Teresa,
I'm so glad you liked her chair pictures - it helps me to write about my Lee Lee and I appreciate so much that you take the time to visit with us and look at her pictures.  It really does mean a lot to me - like someone else is thinking of her.  I hope you are feeling your sweet angel Marley near you in a special way - she loves you so much. That close up photo that you have of Marley's face always makes me misty-eyed (the front one in your 3rd album) - she looks just so sweet and humble.  Yes... one more day closer to seeing our precious girls again. Take care my friend...

~Darren,
I'm so glad Lee Lee coaxed a smile from you - that would make her very happy.  She was always such a joyful girl - her mission was to have everyone around her laughing - mostly at all her silliness.  Thank you for stopping by Darren -  I hope that you are doing okay today - I know how much you are missing your little Spencer Man..it is just so hard to go on without them...

~Bedomom
You are so right - I have so many, many images of my little angel imprinted on my heart - I don't want them to ever fade - remembering and recording some of them help me feel close to her and I need that feeling so badly.  But I know you understand all too well about the missing, the longing for our angels - your sweet Bedo is such a precious little soul. I feel sympathy for anyone who has not known the love of a sweet angel as we have - they have no idea of the blessing they are missing.  Thank you so much for all your kind words and wisdom - I hope you can feel that little Bedo is watching over you every day.

~Elise,
I know, right, it looks like they would be so stiff and sore from laying like that.  I'd try to "fix" her sometimes into a more comfortable looking position and she'd give me that little growl as if to say "Do you mind?... I'm laying this way because I like it..."  Lee Lee and Buddy are probably taking a nap together today twisted up into some crazy poses. It is good to remember our precious babies and their funny habits isn't it?  One day I hope we can remember and smile without so much sorrow coming along with the memories - but somehow I feel my memories will always be bittersweet... 

Hugs to each of you...
Melanie
Bedomom

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Dear LeeLeesMama,
Yes those are beautiful memories that will stay with us forever, and beautiful memories just become more and more stronger as our love for our beautiful angels.  The the anniversaries are hard but together, we will try to turn them to something positive as it is a reminder of  love and happiness with our beloved babies. Lee Lee, Buddy, Bedo, Max and all other angels up there are watching out for us, and they will be with us in their sweet spirits. We can see that clearly in Buddy's beautiful poem and I hope everyone here reads it. I will apply all his beautiful thoughts to life, when there is rain, I feel the shower of love (as it rains a lots here in Vancouver where else there is snow).  Lee Lee is a very special girl and I am sure she always want mom to be blessed at peace.  Even when mom cries, she will be the salty tears when her Mama weeps - I just love this line from Buddy's poem, it is very comforting..
Love and hugs to Double L and her Mama
Bedomom

 
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Dear Bedomom,
Thank you my friend, yes - our precious memories are what will sustain us during the remainder of our time here. It seems like such a very long lonely road that stretches ahead, but we only have to take one step at a time and get thru one day at a time - and eventually, all those steps and all those days will bring us to that glorious reunion that we all await. Until that day - they are still walking with us - it is just that we can't see them in the usual way - Lee Lee was a beautiful butterfly yesterday.... 

Hugs to you and Bedo,
"Double L's" Mama
Mihaela

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I just dropped by to see what everyone is doing, as always I love your stories and pictures of Lee Lee... I still don't feel able to watch Rufus's pictures, but I carry his memory around wherever I go. Glad to see Lee Lee keeps sending you beautiful signs. Hugs!
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Dear Mihaela,
Thank you so much, it means the world to me for you to look at my baby's stories and pictures.  I understand how hard it is - it was quite a while before I could look at Lee Lee's pictures too - one day you will be able to look at your Rufus - when the time is right.  I still can't watch the videos - but one day I will.  I wish it could all be a dream too.
Hugs to you and your sweet baby...
Melanie
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LeeLeesMama I am thinking about you tonight and I am happy that Lee Lee has sent you signs she is very special girl we all know that she has Buddy's angel wings wrapped around her now and the kids up there are playing happily together. I know Doule L will always be with you and there will be many more signs from her. Hug hug to you and Double L Bedomom
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Dear Bedomom....My thoughts are with you also.  When our longing for our babies is so intense it does help to think of them all together looking out for each other.  Hugs...Lee Lee's Mama
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Happy 8th month Bridgeday LeeLee

Hope you are having a good day at Rainbow Bridge...I hope you are getting ready for Rambo's birthday party. I know he will share some of his birthday treats with you.

Melanie.. I am thinking of you today.. Hope its a somewhat good day for you. I hope LeeLee sends you a sign today

Hugs
Sue

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Friday, March 8, 2013 - Friday, November 8, 2013

This morning I awoke suddenly in the early hours - when I looked over at the clock - it was "that" time - some internal remembrance I suppose.  For the last 7 days I have relived that horrible last week 8 months ago hour by hour, every day has some "last" attached to it - my heart has broken a thousand times over this week - her last pitiful little night at home, the last time I saw her walk away, the last time I held her, the last time I said to her "I love you so much".... At this exact time 8 months ago, I was digging a hole in the ground to bury my little baby...

When I can't find the words Lee Lee - you know my heart because you are my heart....

              "You were my favorite hello and my hardest goodbye"

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             "My Little Heart"

Mama luvs you err and err... Kisses and scratches My Little Angel....

(Separated 8 months, 35 weeks ago today ~ but, 245 days closer to seeing you again)
MarleyBarley

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Oh Melanie,
 How beautiful she is. Your sweet letter to LeeLee has me in tears, each anniversary is a new stab at the heart. I wish there were some way to give all of us on this site, all of us that are in so much pain, a way to be with our lost fur babies, just for a moment, just for a kiss and a hug, just for an I love you. But it can't happen, I know they can hear us and feel us so I guess that will have to do until we are reunited, each day closer, each day catching up to those sweet loves who have gone on ahead. We have not left them behind, we are ever getting closer to them. I wish you comfort and a special sign from LeeLee in this day.  245 days closer, closer to that happy reunion.

Teresa
Marley's mom
forever and a day
SueannMN

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 #439 
LeeLee, what a precious pooch. :)

Melanie,
Thinking of you today and hope it brings a warm hug to you knowing that LeeLee is fine.
Hope today brings a loving smile to your heart as you remember LeeLee's special goofy moments and her warm snuggles.

God bless our precious pooches and we thank God they were in our lives.

Sue (sueannMN , Mandy's Mom)
Mihaela

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You are in my thoughts today, Melanie, I know how rough these days are... I wonder if we'll ever stop reliving those last days, those painful images, I guess the only way to keep them at bay is to try to focus on the happy memories, on the ways our babies live on in our hearts, or to picture them playing cheerfully at the Rainbow Bridge. I know it doesn't help much when we ache for them... Hugs, hope Lee Lee sends you another sign or pays you a visit today!
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