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Sofya

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Hello guys, I can’t even begin to express how sad I am right now. Yesterday I decided to sleep to a friend’s house and when I woke up this morning mmy mom told me to come home as soon as I could. When I got there they told me our 5 year old yorkie passed away. He got trapped in the balcony for just 2 hours but that was enough for him to die from the sun and the heat. When my sister got home she found his dead body in the balcony. Nobody was there that morning to let him out of the balcony and he died in such a tragic way. I can’t help but blame myself because if I hadn’t slept out, I would be there in the morning when every one else was gone and I would have saved him. I always keep an eye on him and never let him go in the balcony by himself. I loved this dog to death and I had promised him that I wouldn’t let anything bad happen to him. I feel very guilty for not keeping that promise and letting that terrible thing happen to him. He was the most loving and kind dog I’ve ever seen. He was obedient, quiet and good with everyone. He never did anything bad and he didn’t deserved what happened to him. I got him in a very difficult time of sadness and depression and he was always there for me to make me laugh and keep me company. I can’t believe my little angel is gone now and I will never hold him again. I don’t know what to do I can’t stop crying and I want to die. I can’t imagine my life without my sweet baby. The house feels empty without him and all his little toys. I’m so sorry baby I love you so much please forgive me.
Mel_a_rator

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Hi Sofya, I hear how sad and heartbroken you are. I’m so so sorry for your precious loss...believe me, I understand, I just lost mine too on Memorial Day. I know it may not make you feel any less sad right now, but all life’s what if’s are difficult and there’s no way to have known that would have happened, it’s not your fault. I’m still having a hard time myself, but I find it helpful some to talk it out, and to talk it out again. Have you talked to your mom and sister yet ?

What was your sweet Yorkie’s name ? I know there are many memories, how about let’s share one fondest memory of our beloved baby with each other, which one is your favorite ?

Please keep reaching out, I have found this forum helpful. Sending you hugs....

Mel-a-rator’s Mommy
Jules
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Sofya,
I am saddened to read what happened to your little boy. So horrible. I am so very sorry for your loss. I read on this forum, someone else lost their dog due to the heat, and it happened in the same amount of time, 2 hours.  

I wish I had the right things to say to you. It is so tragic. We try so hard to protect our little ones, and no matter what we do, we don't always have control over everything.  I can't understand why these things happen. I lost my 6-year old dog tragically, under different circumstances, but it has been very hard for me. I am still grieving after 5 months. I know the guilt that goes with it. It's something that eats away at us. I am filled with guilt and I've been trying to shake it, but it comes back and I am haunted every time it does. I understand how much pain you are in. I feel the emptiness, too without my little guy. I always said if anything happened to my dogs, I wouldn't know what I would do. I don't know what to do anymore. I still have his 2 brothers to care for, but I am still lost and empty without him.

Grieve as long as you need and want. There are no rules.  Don't let anyone tell you when or that you should be over it. I wish you peace and comfort. I am told time is what helps. I'm still waiting. I was told it helps to write letters. I do that. 

Come back here where you will get the support you need. Again, I am so very sorry.  ~ Parker's Mom
Sofya

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Hey Jules,
Thank you so much for responding to me. My yorkie’s name was Loki. It’s the second day without our baby today and it’s very bad in the house. My mom and dad couldn’t go to work and they have been crying for most of the day. They were very close to our dog. Especially my dad loved Loki like he was his child. He couldn’t sleep if the dog wasn’t in the bed with them. Now he has a very hard time sleeping and he cried a lot last night. My mom also feels very guilty for accidentally locking the dog out and she has been blaming herself for his death. It’s very heartbreaking to see them like that. Whenever I was sad I would hold sweet baby Loki and talk to him until I felt better. I felt like he understood me in a way. But now I don’t have him anymore and it hurts too much to think he’s not here anymore. His death was so sudden and unexpected I’m still having a hard time believing it’s true. Every time I go to the living room and don’t see his little bed I get shocked all over again.

I’m so sorry to hear about your baby. How long has it been and are you felling better now?
My favorite moment with Loki I think is when he learned the phrase “we love you” and whenever someone said that he tilted his head and jumped. It probably was because in Greek the phrase “we love you” sounds a lot like “do you want to go out” and he thought it meant that we will take him for a walk. Still it was the sweetest thing ever. I miss him so much I don’t know how to make all the pain go away. What is your favorite memory with your sweet dog?
Thanks again for talking to me about this
-sofya
KatKat

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I'm so sorry, what a tragic accident.  I made a mistake that resulted in my kitten's death and the guilt and grief I felt was immense.  Friends and family have been very supportive, telling me I did the best I could but that was difficult for me to believe.  It's been more than 3 weeks and I've been seeing a counselor and engaging in this forum and I have to say it is helping

All of you loved your dear Loki and how you lost her makes it more difficult to come to terms with but in the end it was and accident.  It will take time and working through the grieving process.  Each of you will have to do it in your own way and your own time.  No one mean't for this to happen.  My thoughts are with all of you. 


Mel_a_rator

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Morning Sofya, Loki sounds like a very sweet sweet boy. Your favorite memory of Loki sound so special, how Loki took on what he thought the language words meant, that’s what makes him-him.

I do hear and feel you, the pain will take time to go away, and it may never go away since we love them so much, but can get better. Taking time just to feel slightly better...step by step,..day by day, that’s healing.

My original post on Mel is just a few days ago, please feel free to read it. It’s heading line is “Euthanasia...it was a good decision, but was there a better decision”. It was a bad Memorial Day Monday for me, today makes 5 days without him. I’m still terribly heartbroken and immensely sad and haven’t moved any of his things (not ready for that). Just like yourself, I’m still trying to first adjust to not seeing him around the house. That is hard enough for now. Thank you for your kindness in asking me how I’m feeling.

My favorite memory of my sweet Mel, the non-stop click-click sound of his “tapping shoes” (feetsies). The click sounds are his long black nails, that don’t ever seem to get shortened no matter what I did, tapping on concrete/tile flooring. And non-stop cause he was always so excited he couldn’t stand still. So I heard the click click sound essentially every time I was home.

I got to post a link (for a picture) of my sweet boy on my posting. It was his last Happy 14th Birthday to Mel with a steak meal, he loved it! Posting his pic helps me on knowing that he’s not forgotten and that when seen, people can see what makes him-him and why so special. Was my pic link able to open for you ok ? I would love to see a pic of Loki, do you have any ? There’s a way to post them if you want. There’s administrative instructions on the very first few messages at the top of the board.

Please keep reaching out as needed, and I will do the same !

Sending hugs,

Mel-a-rator’s Mommy
Jules
Sofya

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Guys I’m so sorry to hear about your little ones. You seem like very good and sweet humans I don’t know why these things happened to us and our babies. I think the hardest thing for me is to see my parents crying all day it’s just so sad. Also it’s good to know that people understand what we’re going through. Most people I know, besides my family, don’t understand why I’m so sad and they expect me to go out with them and just be ok. It’s so frustrating. One guy from the army found a small puppy who lost his mother and it is a little bit starved. He can’t keep it because he has to be back in military in 2 days. So he’s going to bring it to me tomorrow and I will probably keep it. I want to help it get better and raise it. I hope that this will help me and my parents cope with our sweet boy’s death.
Sofya

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Hi Jules,
This is a picture of my sweet Loki on his last birthday
http://www.petloss.com/mbphotos4/lokilastbirthday.jpg

I had made for him the number 5 from his favorite treats. At the beginning he didn’t eat it and he was a little confused as to what that thing was. But then I went to my room and when I came back the treats were gone and he had a guilty look on his face. I told him that it was ok because it was his birthday and all these treats were for him.

God even the thought that he died so young and healthy breaks my heart. He was a perfect boy. I miss him so much. His death was so unfair he didn’t deserve to suffer like that. My sweet angel was so good and so clever.
I saw the picture of your boy. He is beautiful and very sweet. Im so sad for what happened to him but I’m sure he lived a very happy life while he was with you. I hope you feel better soon. I hope our babies are happy and at peace where they are now.

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