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Her name was Lady but I called her ladybug and she would have been 8 years old in December. She was my baby and my best friend. I loved her more than any other pet I have ever had. I got her when she was only 3 weeks old because her mom rejected her and would no longer feed her. So I feed her with a syringe for 4 weeks. I got her as a birthday present, 2 weeks after my sister died of leukemia. She was my saving grace, she kept me from falling into a deep depression. I had a devastating miscarriage in 2013 and she was my saving grace then also.
On Monday morning I let her out of the house so she could go potty(I live in the country). And I found her 2 hours later, barely alive. She was mauled by another dog and she died in my arms on the way to the vet. All I could do was kiss her and tell her that I was sorry. And it's been 2 1/2 days and I can't stop crying. My house it empty. My bedroom is really empty. It's almost unbearable. Now I'm really a childless mother because she was my first baby and now she's gone. This feels so similar to my miscarriage, the pain and sorrow. I feel like it's my fault, why didn't I check on her? Why didn't I hear the attack? How long did she lay there? She was probably so scared!
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Oh I’m so sorry for your tragic loss.
I wish there was a magic wand to make this pain disappear. One of the first things we do is seem to blame ourselves, it doesn’t seem to matter under what circumstance they died, we always look to ourselves when really there’s nothing we could’ve done.
Please try not to feel guilty, this was beyond your control. If you could have protected her then no doubt you would have because she knows you love her so much.
I too am heartbroken after losing my special boy cat Raisin suddenly, so be assured everyone on this forum understands how you feel and will comfort you.
I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but it will gradually get easier as time moves on and you will remember her with happy memories.
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Dearest Ladybug's mom,
I can only imagine your pain. To lose your Lady in such a tragic way is beyond anything I can imagine. For her to die in your arms was a loving way for her to go. You held her and she knew the depth of your love. She felt it down to her soul. She doesn't blame you, she only loved you. When we lose our Fur Babies, no matter how they go, we feel guilt and always wish we could of done more. I know I do. I left Termy go over a month ago and I still wonder if I did the right thing. We all do. I always worried about Termy when we walked in the evenings. I was so afraid of the neighborhood dogs. Termy was small also. I hope you can forgive yourself and try to remember all the good times and the loved you both shared. You were a good mom and you did you best. We all wish you love Hugs and doggie kisses Termy's mom
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I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beloved baby ladybug what a sweet and lovely name you gave her. Please don't blame yourself of what had happened sometimes we love to let our pets do a lot of things such as going outside on their own without us realizing that something bad could end up happening out there to them. As much as we want to try to over protect them something always end up happening which is totally heartbreaking. My heart is breaking right now to and I feel horrible because I'm also going through a loss right now I just lost 2 more of my kittens with a total of 4 that are gone already. Reading these stories of all of you losing your babies to is making me even more sad :( how could these be happening to us. Why are we losing our babies in such terrible illness, accidents etc. I wish I could make all of us feel better and just make our babies reappear so none of these would of happened in the first place. But I know that these is not ever going to happen so all we can do is be here for one another and give the best support and comfort that we can. I'm always whiling to lend an ear if anyone needs it much love to you and sending you also a big warm ((((Hug)))) take care ~ Mayra