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I had to put my cat Gabe to sleep yesterday. He wasn't even 3 yet..he had a blockage and was in pain..he needed surgery and it was beyond my means..I miss him so much. It literally was he acted sick one day and I took him to the vet and now he is gone. My head keeps filling up with guilt. I wish I could of done more for him. I wish I could of made him feel like a kitty king for his last few days. I love him with all my heart and I'm so grateful for the time I had with him. I miss him sleeping right against me. He always greeted me at the door..he would hang out by the bath and he had absolutely no fear of water..he lived to play, love, and be bratty. He would cry to get attention in another room and when I called his name he would run so excited up to me..my family called him Tinypaws..it doesn't feel real yet. It just hurts..I don't want to bother anyone with how upset this has made me. This is night two and I've cried again. I just want my baby boy back :( I was so close to him and he's help me deal with some tough times..
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I'm sorry you lost Gabe. It's especially hard when it's so very sudden. It's a big loss in our lives and takes time to adjust to a new normal. We never know how long we will have them and it's never long enough. I still cry for mine at night because he's not there purring away next to my head. The pain lessens as time goes on though and I am finding the pain is not as severe as it was in the beginning. Take care of yourself- it will get better.
Registered: 1579532646 Posts: 7
I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to Gabe - he was so fortunate to have you to love him so deeply. You are not alone with the grief you feel - I had to say goodbye to my sweet cat Tux a week ago today and it is one of the hardest things to have to deal with. I have found that it is so important to talk to someone about what you are feeling - it will help you to process what you are feeling. I'm glad you're here on this message board. If you can talk to family or friends about Gabe and what you're feeling, it may help bring you some comfort. It is very likely that they are grieving too. Also, at first when I felt anxious I didn't realize that it was a very normal response to grief - so know that how you are feeling is a very normal process of grieving. Make sure you are patient with yourself, and take care of yourself - hopefully we can support each other during this most difficult of times.