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Yesterday I pick up Layla's remains. The urn we picked is beautiful. Now that I have her home I'm happy but all of my wounds opened up. I thought I was getting better....I went 2 days without crying...now that is all I want to do.
I miss her so much. Although we only had her for a little over a year I feel like it was longer because I have so many memories of her. I am so empty. My husband is suffering too..but he doesn't talk about it. This site has been a god-send to me. I don't know where I would have been if it hadn't been for this site. Thank you to everyone.....
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I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby Layla. I do think though that having her home and near you again will be a comfort. You can talk to her, sing to her, tell her about your day. I visit my beloved Mr. Meowgy every night before I go to bed and it helps me so to know he is so near.
The emptiness is just horrible, I know. But I do believe our darlings' spirits are still with us, all around us. Our happy memories can bring us smiles eventually. It doesn't matter how long they were with us, they steal our hearts. My family misses Mr. M terribly but they don't talk about it either. I have to bring it up. That is why I come to this site so often. The people here have been so kind and comforting. Keep coming here when you need to talk. Everyone understands your sorrow. I wish you peace and comfort. Donna, Mr. Meowgy's mom
Registered: 1215742082 Posts: 24
Emptiness. That is the word. I havemy kitties to keep me diverted. But the lossof my dog Chico is beyond words. I couldnt cry for my mother, and let it out and let it go, but this lets my grief out for both of them.
Mom wasnt a dog person but would have loved Chico. I didnt bring him to her home because her cats would have went postal. But her home in the country became my home and he loved it here. I think of him tonite, alone, in his grave, not here with me, the confort of his big rug, life sucks.
Registered: 1215698846 Posts: 10
I'm so sorry for you loss. Like you, we only had Hayden for a little over a year. In some ways it feels like we had himforever and in others like it wasn't long enough. I wish I could offer you comfort. All I can say is we are all going through what you are and we will all be here for you if you need to talk. Its hard losing a fur baby because some peopel just don't get why we are hurting. Places like these are so wonderful because here, everyone feels the same way you do. This site has helped me so much already that I'm eternally grateful.
Registered: 1215502221 Posts: 4
I am so with you. My husband picked up my Boxer boy's ashes yesterday. I too have a gorgeous urn ordered for him. So now he's in a plain box, and I just hugged it and cried for a while. You never want to see the day when they come home to you in a box, and it makes the loss hurt all over again. *hugs*
Registered: 1210209740 Posts: 143
Picking up the ashes brings on fresh grief. I know I cried and cried when I picked up Pepe's ashes. But it's also comforting, I found, to have him nearby. I have the beautiful wooden box on a shelf in the computer room with pictures of him, the Rainbow Bridge poem, and cards from friends there. Someday, when the time feels right, we may spread his ashes down at the beach where he loved to run. I am sorry for your loss. Sharon
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Every time I see "Layla's Mom" or your baby's name it gives me a jolt, since we both lost our girls so close together. I know that you miss her. I sometimes wonder how I am going to make it through the day without her--sometimes imagine that when one of the other dogs make a particular noise it's her... It won't be again; I know that. But it's so hard to accept. Many hugs to you. Layla's Mom, too, but on here I had to register as Gypsymagic (even Gypsy was taken so I used the name of our business when we did websites)