Hello everyone. I’m finally back at my house but still find it very empty without Wizard, my best friend. Him not being in the window as I come up the driveway, not greeting me at the door meowing as I come in, not sitting in my lap as I type this….. Basically, for lack of a better word, it sucks! I'll be going back to stay at my Mom's house again tonight or tomorrow for several more weeks or longer. So, until I get internet there, I don't get on this much. I'll be on today and tonight though!
As many of you know, I lost my best friend and companion of nearly 17 years on Wed, May 28th. My wonderful, smart and talkative all white kitty (with 1 blue and one greenish/yellow eyes) passed at the Vets in my arms 4 months short of his 17th birthday.
The strange thing is, I had a bunch of SubQ fluids, special food and other medication left over after Wizard passed. I could have returned them to the Vet, but I decided to donate them to a no-kill cat shelter. So, I went online searching for one and tried to pick one I felt comfortable with. I found one in Salisbury, MA about 30 minutes away on the highway. So, as I looked on their site to get their address so I could stop by and drop off the medication and food, I saw a very cute and sweet looking kitty…. It was like Wizard directed me to her and was telling me “Here ya go Daddy, here’s a sweet little girl that needs a loving home…. I can’t think of a better home and daddy than being with you…”
I really wasn’t ready for another cat but a warm, relaxing feeling came over me that simply made it feel OK and like this was the kitty I was supposed to get!
So, I read the information about her and found she was 7 months old. It said “If you come home after a long day at work and want someone to talk to, “Bandi” loves to listen! And, when you are finished talking, she enjoys telling you a few stories of her own!”
One of the zillion things I loved so about Wizard was how he’s be happy to see me, talk to me,. Listen and then talk to me again! So, Bandi sounded like she may do the same!
I still wasn’t sure if I was ready though. So, I called the shelter and told them about the medication and food and asked if you would accept it. They said YES! Bring it down! They said “Maybe you’ll find a kitty here to adopt too.” I told them I wasn’t ready to be looking at new kitties yet but I did see a cute one on line from their shelter. However, I said, I don’t think I’m ready to see her. They told me that many of their kitties were in Foster Care and Bandi wasn’t at the shelter as she had a foster home until she gets adopted.
I told them OK, then I’ll be down tomorrow with the medication.
The next day came and I headed down to the shelter. As I was dropping of the medication a nice girl came out and asked, Are you the man that just lost his kitty? I said yes. She said, didn’t you say you thought Bandi was cute? I didn’t know but she’s getting over a little kitty cold and is here today, do you want to see her?
I was stunned…. I wasn’t ready, I wasn’t sure, but I wanted to see her… So, reluctantly I said, OK, maybe a quick peek. So, they brought her out and she looked right over at me. They passed her to me and she was adorable. I said “Hi Bandi, how are you?” And she Answered with a meow! I said You are so sweet… I just lost my kitty….. She meowed and started purring and rubbing against me…..
I swear, Wizard had something to do with all this….
So, I filled out the adoption form and they said they’d get back to me in a few days….. I went back to my Mom’s in Massachusetts…. Yesterday they called and said I was approved and I could pick up Bandi tomorrow (today). So, I headed back to New Hampshire to cut the lawn at my place and get ready to get Bandi and bring her back to my Mother’s house with me in MA. I felt so bad about getting another kitty and bringing her home to Wizards house without him being there….. I didn’t want her to be a replacement. But, after cutting the lawn and getting ready to head to the shelter, I got a call on my Cell phone. It was the Emergency Vet’s where I had put Wizard to sleep and from where he was sent out to be cremated. To my surprise, the call was to let me know that Wizard’s ashes were ready to be picked up! So, I wouldn’t be bringing a new kitty back to Wizard’s house without him being here!
It’s just so strange how everything is working out!
The strangest thing of all was, 3 night ago at my Mom’s, I was up late going through pictures of Wizard and listening to a few of our taped conversations. I started to cry and I went outside for have a smoke. It was about 1 AM and it was a starry sky. I was crying and asking for Wizard’s forgiveness for putting him to sleep and hopping he understood… I was asking if it was alright to get another kitty and if he’d forgive me…. I begged for a sign and nothing….. I begged again and nothing….. So, I finished my butt and got ready to head inside and I said, OK, I guess you can’t give me a sign but maybe someday you will. Right then, a quick but beautiful shooting star streaked through the sky! I think it was Wizard telling me he’s safe, he loves me and it’s OK to get the cute kitten he seems to have helped me find!
I don’t know, maybe I’m crazy and reading too much or what I want to into it all…. But in my heart of hearts, I think Wizard is still with me and talking to me and I think he wants me to get Bandi!
I picked up Wizard’s ashes and they sit next me now; he’s in a really beautiful pine box with a plaque with his name on it. They even gave me a dried flowers bouquet to set on top!
I miss Wizard soooooooooo Much!